Bottle it up♡

2010-01-03T22:48:00.007+08:00

Genie

1. Put your iTunes/Napster/Zune Player/WinAmp/etc on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

4. Tag 10 or more friends who might enjoy doing this as well as the person you got it from.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Rich girl - Gwen Stefani

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
She's the one - Robbie Williams

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Maneater - Nelly Furtado

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
The winner takes it all - Mamma mia?

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Heartless - The guy who won American Idol lol

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
If you seek amy - Britney Spears

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Iris - Goo goo dolls

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Remember the name - Fort Minor

WHAT IS 2+2?
4 la!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Photograph - Nickelback

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Too much - Crown J and Inyoung

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
My all - Mariah Carey

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Let's go party - 2NE1

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
One more time - Tree Bicycles

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Where is the love? - Black eyed peas

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
I'll be there - Mariah Carey

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Love song - Sarah Bareilles

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Lies - Bigbang (NOT TRUE OKAY)

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
World of our own - Westlife

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Stickwitu - PCD

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Hush Hush - PCD

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Crazy little thing called love - Micheal Buble

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Headlines - Spice girls

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
ABC - Jackson 5

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
Miss you like crazy - Babyface

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Angels - Robbie Williams

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Pretty boy - 2NE1

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
I'm yours - Jason Mraz

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
Yearning of the heart - BOF OST

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Genie - Girls Generation SNSD

Tagged by Yuxiang,love.
I tag : Xuezhen , Choonkun , Xiaoting, Dalston, AShumei, Michelle, MengL, and it.

2009-12-31T02:22:00.003+08:00

Today is new years eve, and tmr will be the start of new year.
So much things I want to do, but so little time.
I'm sorry Xuezhen, we were supposed to go out but the indecisive me took such a long time to confirm, and now she's got something on. :( I've been waiting for you for so long. Sigh. I guess we have no fate. smelly woman who just bathed! Haha :D
MSN

xuezhen says:
love u too
<3>

I had a really bad nightmare last night, I dreamt that I got super pregnant with two babies(one foetus older than the other) and I a toddler in tow and OMG I swear its one of the biggest nightmare in my life. I had no money and no job and no home, and I was running away from people who were trying to catch me, doing my best to protect both the unborn and born. I remember vividly saying to Xiaoting(in the dream) that being so heavily pregnant with a toddler in tow no one would want me or date me. Omg it was bloody sad, I didnt know the father and I didnt have a boyfriend in the dream. It really felt like the end to me. Like i should do something like dying. Then we were in this shopping mall and suddenly there was this really huge explosion, and glass panels shot up from te ground to block all escape routes, really stupid but i have no idea why. And the worst thing was i lost my toddler, and I was trying my best to lessen any impact or chemical that could hurt my unborn so I was trying my best to run far, quickly. This is a horrible dream where I'm desperately trying to save myself while thinking of dying at the same time. So sick I hope I never dream of something like that again. Feeling so helpless was really devastating I nearly cried in my dream. Sickening and the worst part was when i woke up from it I overslept! Tsk was supposed to meet Xiaoting. Thank god she was still at home, she didnt bother to call me. She wanted me to sleep so that I can lighten my dark circles. How sweet of her! What am i doing now!? I should go to sleep soon I'm really wasting her effort.

ANYWAYS^^ -> New year resolutionssssssssss
If I'm not wrong I've been doing this every year.
Whatever result I'll get for my O's, I'll just have to suck it up and move forward, and to work harder and STOP PROCRASTINATING. I need to tatoo that into my brain its a really bad habit to kick.
Also for my hair to grow longer, and to be more frugal. Cut down on vulgarities too. I have no idea why I'm so vulgar its really ugly, this trait has to go.
Anw i've got four more kg to lose, yay! And have longer hair. Top priority, to takecare of my hair. Got to use the hair massaging method gelene taught me.

Ah i'll miss everything so much i hate growing up! Time should stop now before I start ageing really bad and sagging. nono time should stop after I get married and have kids.
Tsk. Time does fly.

2009-12-30T01:24:00.004+08:00

Movies watched recently : The Avatar, Sherlock Holmes.
Movies i wanna watch: Bodyguards and Assasins!

What I want to do now: Sleep!
What I'm thinking: Hungry

I really want to write about things everyday, on what i have done and all, in detail so i can remember in future. But I'm really lazy and logging in is such a hassle.

Anw, I've been going for band so much that my attendance this holiday for band is even better than some of the members( I have one name in mind) who didn't even bother to show their(her) face(luohan one in fact) in band. Haha. Persis!
Well I went to watch Sherlock Holmes with Jingyi Choonkun and Marcus(Seeeeeeet) yesterday the yesterday( it was really last min, shumei if you get pissed call me i'll watch it again) and it was really really hilarious! Really, you have to pay attention to actually decipher the joke everything is spoken so old fashion i was getting a lil annoyed.
Today clique came over(cept for our two babies) and we watched movies in the comfort of my home :D
Its been so long since we spent so much time together locked up in one place basking in the warmth of each other's presence. Felt so good to just shut up and enjoy a show together!
Hahaha. Anw they left at 11.25 and I"M BLOODY TIRED NOW BUT I WANT TO REMEMBER EVERYTHING.
We watched Yours,Mine,Ours and tv programmes. Lol. Sometimes I wish I own CableTV so that i wouldn't be depriving them from watching better shows in my home and at least let them enjoy( but also because i want to watch the Korean Channel-KBS) and watch in my air-conned living room. Hahaha. Wont it be perfect! Anw Mr Lun's( Yi-sarum tong tong) really nice to teach me Korean! Haha. I have this little book filled with Korean words( the book actually has my name printed on it, its super eerie, its purely coincidence but its really nice I have no idea why its there, and its really my name! Signed sweetly with a heart :D) and Mr Lun helped me out with some words and filled in some blanks. Haha thanks for giving me your spare time Sir! :)
Anw he kind of owes me since I trapped him in this room with Xt's help, and in attempt to get out of it MrLun forcefully pulled the door really hard and my hard got caught in between the handle and the door and it got hurt quite badly :( There's a bruise on the back of my hand which still hurts. Its already five days! Haha. Anw I told MrLun that he couldn't go in but he went in stubbornly to prove me wrong and I got hurt instead of him!? Unfair. Maybe its my just desserts for biting the hand that feeds me, He's been teaching me so much but i'vebeen using them to stab at him instead. But really i'm just kidding! Maybe i should apologise to him tmr. I told him once that if he finds that i'm getting overboard he should tell me, but he says he doesnt bother and knows that i'm just being cheeky, poking at him all the time. Wish I'd done better and worked even harder to achieve the Gold, that way we could at least do him proud. Sigh.

Well its really easy to type out my thoughts so i guess that's the reason this post is getting longer and longer.

Andra Chua Wei Qi is in Bangkok. I miss her so much. :(
Nobody to quarrel and nag at me. I guess absence makes the heart grow fonder.
I shall treat her naggings like the songs i enjoy listening to and sing along with her nags in future. LOL.

To JIE JIE!
Enjoy yourself in Bangkok and take the best of care of your mass of flesh! I hope you remember to get the things I want and to drink so much water that you transpire! Ah I hope you listened to my nags and absorbed it. Wish you'd be able to see this there! I sent you an sms i hope you got to read it! :D

I hope I hope, but you cant see this. Sigh.

2009-12-22T23:33:00.006+08:00

With everyday and night we spend quarrelling, tears are shed.
With every word i say, i make you cry.
I know, that what I am doing is nt wrong.
If i wanted to do something so wrong, i would've done it long ago.
I'm just trying to set myself free, so that i can do what i want.
And not have to live life without experience.
I'm not asking for me to kill and steal, to punch or riot.
I'm simply asking for me to live.
Is that so wrong?
If everytime I ask for something so innocent, you have to think like that and over react,
i might as well stay at home. If i stay at home with no one around, i might as well die.
No one will notice right? What's the difference?
If living life right now is so hard. What for?

Everyday i walk on this thin thin thread.
I'm afraid to do wrong things at work.
I'm afraid i'll say something wrong, and tell wrong information.
I'm afraid to accidentally offend your feelings, and cause disharmony.
I'm afraid that if i say something wrong, you wont love me.
I'm afraid that we will all seperate.
I'm afraid that you will leave me, all alone.
I'm afraid that if i dont do something now, we will all drift.
I'm afraid to even live,
I'm afraid not to oblige, and you'll get mad and ignore me.
I'm afraid that you will never come home, and i'll have to sleep alone.
I'm afraid, that the only rainbow i have, will come to an end.

To think about all these things that I'm afraid, is sad.
That i have to sit and seeth in anger in silence, cus breathing will cause a war.
To have to bear it and will the unhappiness away, so that at least i can breathe.
If only everyday I could live by with just nothing to think of to stress, of nothing to fear.
To have to do so much, and you dont even care.
To have to run at the speed of light, just so you wouldn't get angry.

I just hope that you're there once again, to offer me the companionship i once loved so much.
If i ever get that, it doesn't matter if i have no one else. Because i have you.

To have to go through days in fear.
Being able to watch my shows are actually a blessing.
I can be in a world with no stress, no fear, no sadness.
I just feel and anticipate, and get happy endings.
I dont even know how to describe how i truly feel.
Education and socialising is of no use, i can even type down the knot i'm feeling right now.
Maybe i'm just lucky that i'm getting numb. Its just so hard to cry when you've been keeping it in for so long. And crying just doesnt matter because its just tears, and you actually find that there's no point crying.

I'm just so tired, and wish that problems will just stop and i can do what i want.
What i want that is not wrong.
that you wouldn't think that it would be.
And i'd be free to do it,
The reason why i'm really upset because it does not make sense,
for people to actually tell me to do things they themselves are not setting a good example of.
To tell me that i cannot spend thenight out, when you yourself is not sleeping at home.
To say that i'm not allowed to this or that, when you yourself are being such a prick.
I just want it so bad, because i dont want them to get mad.
Why do i even care?

Sometimes its so frustrating to want something so bad, and get nothing in return.
to keep giving on and on, but get nothing back.
To have to tell myself that it will all be over and keep staying numb, its just pathetic.
because everyday, i know i'm not living a happy and normal life like everyone else.
it just gets so hard to stay sane.
To have to watch you be so happy, but crumble alone.
I have a choice, to either live life everyday with a frown, or simply just make the best out of it.
I chose my choice, and that is whatever i do, i know i'll have myself.

I just hope that sometimes, i dont have to listen to all of your problems anymore.
I'd beg you to sit down and listen to mine, let me speak, let me tell my story.
But I can't. I wouldn't know where to start. There would be nothing to tell.
Because its been too long since i have. I'll never know how to open up anymore.
I will only know how i feel, eccentric feelings that no one understand, that no one can connect to.
I will just keep staying mute and numb.
I know i should be thanking my lucky stars because my life could be worse.
But living in a sticky web, threading on a thin thread precariously everyday, is just hard.
To feel uneasy and not have appetite, but still have to eat, is disgusting.
To have to force food into my mouth and actually swallow is sick.

I dont even know who i need anymore.
Someone who understands me best would be me, i wish i can just duplicate myself, and just keep myself company for the rest of my life. I know i will never be alone, because i will always be able to think and talk to myself. I know, i will need someone who understands me one day, who will be my soulmate and spend forever with me. But that day will never come, no one will understand me crystal clear, no one will feel how i feel, no one but me. Soulmates only happens on tv, in blockbuster movies and in fairytale books.

At times like this, I wish that i can just step off a cliff and start flying.
When i stop, i will know, that i'm in a world where there is no pain.

2009-12-22T16:14:00.004+08:00

After school- AH

Well, this is one of the few reasons as to why I'm not listening to english songs anymore. Ok maybe I dont unerstand much of the lyrics, but there's such a thing called internet and translations!

Ah I'm feeling so tired. Was supposed to wake up earlier today to edit the alumni band proposal thing and I overslept. Now i've got lesser time to watch my shows.
Band was actually really fun ytd because i got to play the songs i wanted, but miss goh had to spoil it all she's such a bitch. I dont see why ex-students have to keep their hair undyed and wear only one stud per year when there are teachers who do the exact opposite in our school and exist. Some of them even dress like dolls to come to school. Stupid system especially since they're supposed to be the ones setting a good example. How unfair, annoyingly they dont even practice what they preach so why the hell do we have to listen! Natos.

Going to meet mum and sis later to watch Avatar. Happy! I wanna eat good food hahaha.
Found out that Andra cheated and photoshopped away her pimple I named pimply. ): I intentionally took pictures with it in it and now she's photoshopped away. Lol! Well i guess sister has to keep her reputation pimple freeeeeeee.

2009-12-13T15:53:00.009+08:00

HELLO JASON!

As you can see I have decided to dedicate an ENTIRE BLOGPOST TO YOU!
Isn't that sweet?
I concluded that since you required so much more attention than PB, I'll give you WHAT YOU WANT.
I'm very sure that you're adamant on not retrieving the remains of your brain and actually contemplating on the contents of your tags, which are entirely not meaningful, pathetic, and are utterly overwhelming with faecal matter.
Apparently, you do not know how to FOLLOW AFTER PB, who gladly disappeared obediently without much fuss. THANKYOU PB! FOR YOUR KIND VANISHING!
Anw Jason, since you're such a pussy, well well. This entire post is for you!
I'm sure that you're very happy that I've given you such a wonderful post right here.
Well, of course with no doubt. the topic would be MIND YOUR OWN BUSSINESS! aka MYOB.

I'm going to respond to your TAGS in detail. So please, sit tight and do not navigate away, JASON.

For starters, I'd like to inform you that I'm 16, and PB is of unknown age.
We are going through puberty, and are not yet an adult. So obviously, I'M NOT MATURE YET RIGHT!?!??!?!
Secondly, coming to MY blog( i had to cap the MY just in case you're one of those unlucky asians with super super slitty eyes, oh wait, i guess no one has it. Because only ultimate nosey parkers have them- SLITTY SLITTY EYES THIN LIKE HAIR STRANDS) and asking me to MYOB isn't right is it? You are being such a KPO KING yourself by even having the audicity to poke your nose into this bussiness, BUT EVEN ASKING US TO STAY OUT OF IT!! Please, its like eating beef and claiming that you're faithful to Guan Yin Ma.
Furthermore, we can't really act like our age because there isn't a general AGE GUIDE BOOK that teaches us how to do so, and there isn't a law in Spore that demands us to. So unless you're an ultimate angel, SHUT THE FUCK UP.
The third, like i mentioned, 16 year olds be coming parental has got NOTHING TO DO WITH US. NOTHING. NADA. NIL. ZILCH. Its not even advisable to do so! Unless you are a parent right now, being 16 and living in a miserable run down flat having 16 kids bouncing around the house, SHUT THE FUCK UP. You have no bloody right to ask us to grow up when you yourself is being such an infant coming here to tag all your MYOB nonsense when you're not even practicing what you preach. Maybe you dont understand the contents of this blogpost. Its okay. I strongly urge you to RETURN TO PRESCHOOL AND START YOUR EDUCATION ALL OVER AGAIN. Obviously you've not learnt anything in your whole of 16 years. Socialising and education has given you NOTHING.
Oh yeah anyway, what was the "stop flattering" thing? My god you're really dumb.

And your next tag, "I mind your bussiness and you all mind yours too" WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU!? Whats with THE BUSSINESS THING!? Can't you just screw off obediently and eat your words??? Why're you such a stubborn mule ( A mule is a child of a horse and a donkey incase you're still bloody stupid) bent on asking everyone to MYOB!?
I can only conclude that you have a pea brain ): Because..... You just fucking repeat that like, a hundred times because that's the only FRICKING CONTENT IN YOUR BRAIN.

By the way jason( notice that i didnt give you the caps for the J, you dont deserve it. You're under the level of a homo sapien) IT IS NOT ENTIRELY CHOONKUNS FAULT. Have you heard of the saying " IT TAKES TWO HANDS TO CLAP" ? Oh no, i dont think so. I forgot about your pea brain.
Anw, WHICH PART OF THE ENTIRE INCIDENT IS CHOONKUN'S FAULT?? CAN YOU TELL ME!? If can't then again, SHUT THE FUCK UP.
ANYWAY, IF IT WEREN'T FOR YOU, WE WOULDN'T HAVE TO STOP. BECAUSE YOU STARTED IT. So are you gonna apologise? Hmm? Or maybe you can bring THE FEMALE LEAD ACTRESS OVER HERE TO ASK EVERYONE TO STOP SINCE ITS ALSO HER FAULT. HOW ABOUT THAT?

SO UNLESS YOU HAVE ANYMORE INTELLECTUAL COMMENTS TO MAKE, SHUT THE FUCK UP. YOU KNOW YOUR PRESENCE IS A PAIN. AND LOSERS LIKE YOU ARE A WASTE OF MONEY IN OUR SOCIETY, BECAUSE YOU WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO CONTRIBUTE ENOUGH TO EVERYONE AS ALL YOU CAN DO IS TO REPEAT NONSENSICAL CRAP REPEATEDLY.

And lastly, you're an IT. Even Meng's sweet sucker(ITS A DOG) is a him. Don't you feel so mediocre? Just drown yourself in the toilet bowl. Yes, there isn't even enough water. But you're dumb enough to die in THAT. AND FUCK YOU! For wasting my precious time when i could have spent it watching We Got Married. FYHHTTM!

HERE'S A GREAT BIG THANK YOU TO MY BRILLIANT FRIENDS, WHO'RE ALWAYS THERE FOR ME TO HELP ME CLEAR PARASITIC BUGS LIKE jason! I DEEPLY APPRECIATE ALL YOUR TIME WASTED ON THE PIECE OF PLANKTON, THANK YOU DEARS! XOXOXO :D

THANK YOU TO - BRANDON CHOONKUN DALSTON DYDYFLOSS MENGLIANGSS XIAOTING! :D YOU'RE THE BEST I'LL EVER GET. :)

2009-12-05T01:15:00.002+08:00

Presents! :D

One good thing about having sweet buddies is that they get fantastic souveniers for you!
Hahaha. Jingyi bought this really nice watch for m from taiwan!
It's white with a couple in it. I really needed watch, but i didnt want to get one.
But now I've got it! :D Thank you Jingyi dear! :D

And thank you Choonkun! haha. Thank you for reading the whole post up till after Dals's concert! Faithful loyal and patient! :)
Well, he bought me this really pink sweet glitter nail polish from japan! I'm using it now heh heh heh. I've been searching high and low for a nail polish like this (really! ask jingyi) But they were either to expensive or to fugly. So I just waited till i found the right one... Tada~!
Choonkun bought this for me from Japan! Happy happy thank you so much! :D

Sigh, so guilty for staying in Singapore all the time and not being able to get stuff for you guys. Thank you for remembering me when you should be busy getting stuff for yourselves and having fun. Thank you! xoxoxoxoxo :D

FOR LITTLE MISS SELFISH
Because choonkun deserves better than you, and maybe you're just being a sick bitch for hogging him for more than a year. With all the lies and rotten nonsense, you should go to hell. You could say that he sucked, but you're not much of a looker yourself. You're just lucky you found another beast to hog. For all the presents that he got you, all the smses, the time, the money, the love, they were all wasted. You have no idea that other girls would be begging to take your place, but no. Like a wastrel you wasted it all.
Well, at least he's a free man now! He can ogle every pretty lady in sight on the streets, flirt will all the xiao mei meis(LOL), chat up girls because he's not TIED DOWN BY AN INSENSITIVE BITCH LIKE YOU ANYMORE.

Choonkun! All the best in your future! I really hope that you'll meet the right one who'll do you justice, please dont get shit in your eyes again and waste yourself on someone so sinful. Please, or I'll make sure you return home with one leg.

2009-11-26T23:23:00.000+08:00

I WANT TO WATCH NEW MOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

2009-11-24T00:58:00.004+08:00

Its hard for me too. I'm really sorry I got mad and said those things.
Sorry.

2009-11-23T05:23:00.001+08:00

I'm hungry, muffins, anyone?

Woke up really late today at 4, slept at like 6 yesterday.
I'm watching BOF all over again. I dont know why, but I just dont want to get over it so soon so i'm jumping into it again.
Haha. Well, didnt meet clique today.
Today was strange and quick, and its 5 am already.
Anyway, Popo they all dropped by, and i took some really cute photos with and of the kids.
Missed them so much. Cuddly little lumps of flesh. Anyway we went out for dinner at Buangkok area, and Kong Kong specially ordered the mushroom dish i really liked. So sweet of him :)
I dont know when i can go eat Popo's mushrooms, she cooks it really well with abalone, ah well. I made do with the ones at Buangkok.
Came home from dinner and sat here till now, but this doesn't feel like no-life. It feels more like peace.
Peace from the noise, crying, hurting, shouting, screaming, teasing and hassles over what to wear.
Its really nice to just sit here and do what want, and it's been eons since i last did so.
So now I refuse to sleep so early, otherwise this feelings gonna go away.

And all you idiots ask me to update, i did and all go holidays and dissapear ): so bad.

And Choonkun! haha he's in Japan now and he got me a gift. Heh heh heh.
He's a true friend, he never fails to get me a souvenier. I can count so many which he bought for me.
Socks from Korea, this pen key chain from Hongkong? And now a new present from Japan!
Too bad i dont go overseas often. :/
Its okay choonkun, I'll go get something for you from Sentosa! :)
Lol.

Today is the day i opened up my heart, pulled you out and ventured out to see how you've been doing.
I read on and on, contemplated.
With every word i saw, did i seeth in anger?
I didnt. I smiled and remember those times we shared.
I started to wonder, to ponder.
It trespassed my mind, i didnt want it to.
But it doesnt matter. Because I wont allow it.
You'll just join the ones who didn't make it to my future.
Why? That's simply because if i really needed you for my survival, I'd be dead long ago.
But no, I'm fine.

Maybe, just maybe, only if you grovel on broken glass and beg on your knees.
I could be wrong, yes, but i just can't find it in my heart to look at you.

2009-11-22T01:01:00.003+08:00

God it took me three attempts to remember my password to get to where I am now.

Anyway, 460th post, Hibernation ends here! :)

Sorry to make everyone wait so long. But really, I swear my computer was being a bitch, and motivation went away. So i really couldn't find the patience and heart to sit down and post. So many excuses right? Yeah, I know.

O LEVELS
Well, it ended really quick. And the anticipation every night before every paper nearly killed me. I really couldn't sleep, i didnt dare to. And when i finally slept every night i was so tired for being worried the whole night that i couldn't get myself to crawl out of bed. Hell, but most of the time i was able to ply myself off it since it'd be the last time I would be revising it. English was horror. I didnt know what the fuck i was doing for my compo. Really, its just the worst piece of work i've ever put together in my whole life. But the rest was okay really. Better than the horror i anticipated it to be. I'm hope I do really well. Not gonna say anymore before I jinx it.

DAYS AFTER O LEVELS
Pretty much living in a blur because i couldn't really feel the holidays. I didnt really let my hair down because days after cramming and mugging, where got so good! HOLIDAYS NOW!? But yeah it was actually. Everyday I'd suddenly wonder what to do next. Because there's nothing left to study. Nothing to do but play! Went shopping with Jingyi much of the time, spent bloody lot hell of money. Felt really guilty everyday, not because of the money but because i felt like i should've studied harder and am not supposed to have the privilege to enjoy now. But no point whining further, what's done's done. So I've just got to do a better job next time. Sigh. Days of not blogging is making me talk and comfort myself here. God. Well I've also had damn bloody fun with clique went to play volleyball and all. Like i said i've been living in ablur so i dont really remember what i've been doing. lol oh yeah! and shopping on prom. I blew alot of money on non-prom things also. But idk wheretf it went.

THE PROM
Prom arrived really quickly, time flies. And on the day of prom i realised that i was actually missing alot of things like i didnt trim my brows-.-
Went to my sister's friend's house, Germain Anne and she did my make up for me :D
It was really exciting cus she really envisioned what she wanted for me.
Thank you for doing my make up and making my eyes look bigger ;D

Anyway, guess what! It wasn't in the lousy tent but some Begonia Ballroom. I've never heard of it, but the place wasn't too bad. Just that the food was rather lousy and i didnt manage to get my own. I went to get it but the plates were gone! And i had to go back to my seat or th emcee will summon me upstage. I really didnt want that so i just fed of brandon's and jingyi's food. Prom was really fun on the photo taking part, many people whom I thought forgot about me actually didnt, and actually remembered me. Haha. I thought it was really nice to run about taking photos. But it somehow felt like seperation.
After Prom Xiaoting MengLiang Shumei Joshua Brandon and I went to Macs to eat after a damn fucking long deliberation. I didnt really enjoy the food, i was too hyped to eat and the food couldn't go down. lol. Then we all cabbed home. So tired! Slept at 4am +++++

DALSTON'S CONCERT DAY!
Slept really late, woke up really earlly at like 10 ++++. Was supposed to go to Ahma's house for lunch but when i was about to leave it was raining hippos and king kong's so i stayed at home. Then i rushed off to orchard for job interview. Omg i waited for the bus damn long andthere was this small flood at the bustop dirtied my heels damn bad. Sicko. I was so afraid to be late but thank god i reached there on time hohoho. I hate those heels. I was really dying on my way there. And i barely crawled my way back. Knn thank god i bought black mary janes it'll definitely feel like i'm stepping on clouds while i work. Haha.

Went to Dalston's concert after, I forgot to bring my ticket! I swear i didnt do it intentionally(who the fuck will) and i didnt even expect myself to be so absent minded. So my circle seat costed me $24 bucks. Lol. But its worth it, I didnt wait so long for the concert to stand outside the theatre. Lol. Enchanted and Micheal Jackson through years rocked, Enchanted was really nice! True love's kiss was like, the sun rising or a rainbow forming or something. It's just so wow i really can't find any words to describe it. Maybe just : WAH!" And Micheal Jackson through the years were really sweet, parts from Man in the Mirror, I'll Be There and Thriller. Well, saved the best for the last. :) Haha actually I expected We are the Children and Billie Jean or Beat it, but its not really possible cus Billie Jean and Beat It is actually made up of more like techno music. I didnt really hear Bush Dance cus my nose bled =.= perfect timing. Anw it was really awesome cus we were having fun being maniacs shouting and cheering. We even got ticked of by this lousy usher who tried to shut us up :" Excuse me this is a concert" Hell ya we know that, we paid for the effing tickets and seats, and being overly enthusiastic is not our right?! Well sad for you usher, no one goes :" GO USHERS!!!" so i guess you feel left out ): Its okay. You can go to the National Stadium for NDP and be an usher there, they get appreciated real good.
Off we went to Just Acia after the concert, and the kids really enjoyed themselves. Jun Han was really cute, he wore this tigger shirt and he looked like a toddler. Lol. It was a long day too! Slept at 3 am +++ felt good to hit the sack.

SATURDAY
Was a really shitty start of the day for me everyone was nagging at me to wake up. I was really tired and sister was so angry cus she could'nt get me out of bed. I'm sorry but i swear i was really beat. Anw today's outing with Ahyi was super screwed so we didnt go in the end. I wouldn't say that it was eventful, more of catastrophic with all the screaming and shouting and crying. Anw we're going out tmr for lunch so it doesnt matter.
Went out with clique to get some stuff to prepare myself for work, i hope i dont get fired soon. lol. Watched "My March"? or something at Dalston's house. It was really funny and kinda sick but i had a good laugh after a long day. Okay this is getting really draggy. so boring right! I bet many stopped reading after DAL's concert. Idiots.

SUNDAY EARLY DAMN BLOODY EARLY MORNINGG
I'm playing cafe world! And searching for a blogskin for me to change to. I really hope i get one i like soon.I dont even know if I'll really change it today cus i'll get damn bloody lazy. I've not even started to watch my dvds. My holidays are more packed than i thought. Well, I've updated my life! haha. I didnt expect myself to finish blogging about everything, but guess what! I DID. HAHA.

When life was hard, you were there to make it better.
Now, life is harder, but you're not here anymore.
Its just harder to manage and stay sane when you're not here to heal me, or be there.
Maybe you thought you weren't important to me or that you can't be bothered to anymore.
But believe me. I need you more than ever.

2009-08-11T20:08:00.001+08:00

HIBERNATION.
Not exactly true, but it pretty much sums up what i'll be doing next.
I wont be coming online so often(not like i came online alot) but well, its gonna be far worse than now i guess.
So stop telling me wtf is online and how nice things are because i wont get to see it. HAHA.
Well, yuxiang made it a good point to leave a happy post here.
Went to Changi beach ytd with buds and IT WAS SUPER FUN. (sorry for the vague vocabulary. But really. Fun sums it all up. It wasn't splendid cus it wasn't grand and the toilets stank like pee, and the salt water pierced my eyes. I cut my toe! So lame and small but its still an injury and hurts a teeny bit. Better than Eugene who stuck his palm on a sharp rock. Look like grated cheese haha!)
Then we all had dinner at Just Acia, felt so gooooddddd and blissful to even have food in my stomach. Sick of Bibimbab i'm not eating that anymore. Yuck.
I hope its not gonna be the last fun i'm ever gonna have till o levels. I dont want. Cus that's sad.
Anw i shouldn't even be having fun but so what! Everyone sins.
I got tanned. I didnt want to. But i came home like char siew yesterday. Thank god for my Nivea cream, otherwise my skin would be peeling or hurting like i grated my skin on purpose.
School today sucked. I couldnt tear myself from my bed. Much less iron my uniform. I felt like just shooting myself so that i could lay in bed forever. But NOOOOOOOOOOO i didnt want to hear ah huanny calling my house phone so i just crawled to the bathroom to wash my face.
And i just realised that i dont post funny rubbish anymore. Or mean things. Oh i dedicated one to raveena previously. Omg waste my time and blog post.

On a random note;
- Leave the one who loves you for the one you love? Its wrong. ):
- You said you wouldn't do it. But you're working on it and it kills me.
- you promised not to drift.
- Look what you've done.
- I'm so tired.
- I hate insecurity.
- "screwed up life" & "dysfunctional family". Well, I never thought I'd hear these words right in my face and directed at me. But sad to say i did. The worst part is having to feel how much it hurts and cuts me deep, and not being to do anything about the pain, you inflicted.

I AM GONNA STUDY HARD SO GO AWAY AND STUDY TOO, WHAT'RE YOU DOING HERE WHEN YOU SHOULD BE STUDYING!?
Toodles. See you all in mid-november. I'll fight my urge to blog. Everyday. Or i could just smash the computer screen. Save all the trouble and tempation, aite?

Anyway, you know the time 11:11 pm/am ? Well, I've seen it so many times. Day after day, one/twice a week. Most of the time before i sleep. Rumour has it that if you wish really hard for something(mostly related to love) When you see the time 11:11 pm/am it'll come true. I guess you're supposed to wish before it hops on to 11:12. I used to believe in it and hoped and wished, but its not done any good to me. So i guess its hocus-pocus. For all of you nut brains out there, stop wishing too. It lies. Time lies.

Wan an! Goodluck for everyone's O lvls! :)

- And thank you dears for tagging. I'll respond soon alright! After exams I promise. I'll go to cbox and read it all again. Love ya'll ^.^

2009-07-28T21:26:00.000+08:00

TO THAT FUCKING FAT BALL OF GHEE IN 4E1!

HELLO, JUST BECAUSE WE ARE ACADEMICALLY WEAKER, DOES NOT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO LOOK DOWN ON US. IT DOES NOT MEAN WE ARE STUPID! HAVE YOU EVER HEARD OF THE TERM STREET SMART? NO. WHY? BECAUSE YOUR FAT HEAD IS TOO OVERSTUFFED WITH TEXT BOOK CONTENTS AND MOCK VEGETERIAN FOOD TO EVEN ACKNOWLEDGE THAT TERM AM I NOT RIGHT? EVEN THOUGH WE'RE NOT AS SMART AS YOU, FUCKER, WE HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO WORK HARDER. WELL, YES I'M SAYING WORK HARDER BECAUSE IM' SURE THAT WE'RE NOT TRYING AS HARD AS YOU TO SCORE FANTASTIC GRADES! WE ARE A BUNCH OF LAZY PPL GETTING AROUND AVERAGE GRADES, BUT YOU, YOU ARE WORKING YOUR FUCKING FAT SHIT ASS OFF EVERYDAY JUST TO GET WHERE YOU ARE TODAY. ISN'T THAT SAD? I BET YOU DESPISE PPL WITH NATURAL BRAINS IN YOUR CLASS RIGHT? STOP LOOKING DOWN ON PPL. YES, WE'RE NOT SMARTER. BUT WE HAVE A LIFE. INSTEAD OF LIVING A FAT LIFE LIKE YOURS MUGGING AND EATING MORE FAT FOOD(SUPPOSEDLY VEGETARIAN) WHICH SHOULD BE MAKING YOU "LIVE A HEALTHER LIFE". NOOOOOO YOU'RE STILL AS FAT AS EVER. AND EXCUSE ME, GOING TO POLY DOESNT MAKE PPL DUMBER THAT THOSE OF JCs. IT DOESNT! SO UNLESS YOU CAN GET INTO RI THEN WONT YOU FUCKING SHUT THAT BIG HOLE IN YOUR FACE! OH, AND BY THE WAY. ALTHOUGH WE ARE NOT AS SMART, DID I MENTION THAT AT LEAST WE ARE HEALTHY ENOUGH TO STUDY LONGER, STUDY HARDER? UNLIKE YOU! SO FUCKING FAT EVEN IF YOU'RE BLOODY CLEVER, YOU'D MAKE IT TO NOWHERE YOU'D BE DROWNED BY YOUR OWN FUCKING FATS! IMAGINE THAT? YOU HAVE ENOUGH NUTRIENTS, IF WE GIVE UP YOUR LIFE, GOD KNOWS HOW MANY FUCKING THIRD WORLD KIDS WE CAN FEED!! YOU'RE SO FUCKING FAT THAT YOU'LL NEVER MAKE IT ANYWHERE BECAUSE YOU'LL BE TOO FUCKING FAT TO EVEN LIVE LET ALONE STUDY!!

I've gotta cool down man. Oh and let me add on, WHEN YOU FUCKING LIFT YOUR FOOT TO PLACE IT ON THE WEIGHING SCALE, MY PHONE NUMBER APPEARS.

EAT THAT FAT BITCH!

2009-07-28T20:23:00.001+08:00

Hello world!
Its been eons since i last posted.
Hahaha i'm sorry its just that life has been super stagnant, boring and i couldn't find an inch of motivation to post. :P
Well, had a blast last sat! Stayed over at Dals's house with meng.
Aaron left after dinner though. We cooked ( well mine was super horrid) and we ate and watched thirteen ghosts. Super sick. But the story plot was really nice! Haha. Anw we watched movies and did nonsense, we left the house in the middle of the night, bout 4? and went about to 7 eleven, climbing the fence in the middle of the road, and walking about. We even jumped into the painting carraige of some bangalas and took photos! Hahaha. What the heck right! But noooooo we were having fun while you, YES YOU! This fat pig who was sleeping at home while we were living life! Haha.

Well i've got two days MC with heather dear, both of us went to see the doc ytd morning. I HATE HOUGANG POLYCLINIC. Super inefficient can!? We spent like what!? about 5 hours of our life in that shithole!?! MY GOD WASTED MY TIME CAN!? Tsk. If not for the fact that I've got heather love i would've died or crawled home. We took so many pictures! hahaha. I slept at like 7 plus ytd and woke up today at eleven. talk about resting, i've got loads of it man. Anw I'm going off! Haha i'm not posting anymore. I'm gonna edit this blogskin i'm kinda sick of it. Toodles! :)

2009-07-16T21:34:00.007+08:00

When you start on how miserable life is, think, about all the kids in the third world region. If you think you're miserable living in a one room flat, they have no home. If you think you're fucking poor and that you're unable to eat your favourite burger or chicken wings everyday, they have no rice. When you complain that your water tastes weird from being too old or stagnant, they drink muddy water. When you complain that your heater is spoilt and showering in cold water sucks, they bathe in swamps and rivers.
Well, isn't life supposedly blissful now?

Hello dear blog.
This week kinda sucked. I got back many results. Much of which were horrible. I'm not gonna blog on how I'm gonna study harder and how disappointed I am with myself. No. Because after every single exam, i do this and repeat this cycle over and over, but do I do anything? No. I just sit around and wallow when I should be going about and making a difference, putting in more effort.
What's the point of giving up my life and time for you, when I should be mugging? Yes, the truth is you wont run away. And I know, I suck at balancing and prioritising. I know very fucking well what the fuck should be on the top of my to-do list now; studying. I know, clear as crystal. But why do i just not understand the importance and keep searching for you? Because in the end, it all boils down to ME. You wont be there to comfort me. You wont be there to cheer me on. You wont be there to share my joy. You wont be there FOR ME. I can say that I'll give everything up for you. I can say that my future holds no meaning to me without you. But do you love me enough? No. Enough to take care of me forever? It will never be enough. Because all that I'm willing to sacrifice, all the suffer i'm willing to endure in silence, all my tearless cries, soundless screams. It will all lead to nothing. Why? Because I will never tell you the truth. Unless I'm on the verge of death or am down with a terminal disease. And then again, I might not tell you. For all the pain and hurt I would cause? I dont think so. What now? It's all about ME again. Either way, I'll die alone. If i get lousy grades for my O lvls, who's gonna be affected? Me. Me alone. My results will never affect you. Because soon you'll be leaving me, just like them. And I'll have to fend for myself like the usual. So is it worth it to have all the fun and happiness and joy in the world, just to kill myself for the future? And the worst part of all is, its entirely my fault. I'm fully capable to make a difference, but I dont have a strong enough will power. I was telling Jingyi this afternoon. And she pointed out that I am just plain lazy. When you get it in the face, you really wonder, " what for?" You can say that I dont have to do this. But will you be there for me?

Because..... it all boils down to me, when
I FAIL; I LOSE. & I DIE.
Simple as ABC. This is reality.
Its Prelim ONE. And I'm still getting shit grades?
WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING WITH MY LIFE?
Well, I know the answer, that is: Throwing it into the pits when all the miserable people in the world are willing to die, just to live my not-so-perfect life.

2009-07-15T00:24:00.002+08:00

Well i got tagged my Myshell in facebook. So i decided to do it here instead.

Rule #1:
If you open this you take it.

Rule #2:
You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages you and asks.

Rule #3:
Tag 17 people.

Answer True or False

Q: Kissed someone? T
Q: Been arrested? F
Q: Do you like someone? T
Q: Held a snake? F
Q: Been suspended from school? F
Q: Sang karaoke? T
Q: Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? T
Q: Laughed until you started crying? T
Q: Caught a snowflake on your tongue? F
Q: Kissed in the rain? F
Q: Sang in the shower? T
Q: Sat on a roof top? F
Q: Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? F
Q: Broken a bone? F
Q: Shaved your head? F
Q: Played a prank on someone? T
Q: Shot a gun? F
Q: Donated Blood? F

Just be 100% truthful.

LAST PERSON.

1. You hung out with? Dalston.
2. You texted? Mom.
3. You were in a car with? Cowfu
4. Went to the movies with? Clique
5. Person you went to shop with? Heather! :D
6. You talked on the phone? Popo
7. Made you laugh? Dalston
8. You hugged? No one

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY...

1. Sun or moon? Moon
2. Winter or Fall? Winter
3. Left or Right? Right
4. Sunny or rainy? Depends
5. Where do you live? Sengkang
6. Club or pub? Club
7. Are there 1 or 2 people who you can always trust and rely on? yes.
8. Do you want to get married? OF COURSE!
9. Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it? Twirl.
10. What time is it? 12.16 am.
11. Are you afraid of commitment? NO.
12. What is your greatest hope/wish? To be with the one i love forever. Duh.
13. Do you cook? Yes! Edible ok.
14. Current mood? Tired.

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS HAVE YOU...

1. Kissed someone? Mum
2. Sang? Yes
3. Listened to music? Yes
4. Danced? Nope
5. Cried? Sunday?
6. Liked someone you can't? yes.

22 FIRSTS

1. Who was your first prom date? Have never been to prom!
2. Who was your first roommate? Choy. :)
3. What alcoholic beverage did you drink when you got drunk the first time? 've never exactly been drunk.
5. What was your first car? Not legal yett
6. When did you go to your first funeral and viewing? When i was p3, 2002? Ah gong ):
8. Who was your first grade teacher? Mrs Fong. Always abuse me and ask me to get things for her from her stupid car.
9. Where did you go on your first ride on an airplane? Hong Kong trip w/ SKY band :D
10. When you snuck out of your house for the first time, who was it with? Idk i think my sis or friends?
11. Who was your first Best Friend? Woah that was like kindergarden or pri schl Dont rmb. Angela? o.O Or Some Andrea person.
12. Who is your best friend? I have many DARN GREAT friends who make up into one best friend ;D
13. Where was your first sleepover? Dalston's house! Last week. Last last week? Ah last last last i think lol!
14. Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day? I dont know. It depends. If the day sucks really bad I'd rather not talk :/
15. Who's wedding were you in the first time you were a Bridesmaid or groomsmaid? None.
16. What's the first thing you did when you got up this morning? Open my eyes!
17. First tattoo or piercing? piercing
18. First celebrity crush? I think this really cute hollywood guy i saw in the movies. omg infatuation man.
19. First crush? MY LAO NIANG.

Today has been a super long day.
I studied, all the way till five. Got smarter? Of course!
I played volley ball for bout two hours. Lost calories? Of course!
Chatted with Dals at the bus stop. Relaxed? Of course!

You see?? Today is a super productive day! :D
I got smarter, lost calories and relaxed. Super balanced right! Haha but its so late and i'm not sleeping early so its kinda contradicting. But whatever I'm going to sleep. Do coursework B tmr. Lol. I'm gonna hit the sack!
Goodnight everyone. Sleep tight (;

2009-07-08T11:27:00.004+08:00

OMFG!
How can you this stupid tiko hairy old man just fucking bloody file a report against heather and I just because we left school early!? Hello!? We ended our paper and we dont have amath! So that means we can go home right! Or what?? Roam about in school like homeless motherfuckers!? You're such a dickhead! And why cant we go home early!? Are we even supposed to wait for the whole school to be dismissed before leaving!? Just when i really wanted to try my best not to be late/absent/do stupid things you just have to do this to me. I really want to get a proper conduct grade this term! What is wrong with you motherfuckers!?

2009-07-08T10:36:00.003+08:00

I didnt go to school today!
Hahaha well everyone else is in school going through the motivational talk.
I'm enjoying myself at home going online and doing garbage. Lol.
At least i dont have to suffer for 13 hours in school. With only one hour break in the whole day.
Well, fever went down a little. But a little sore throat though. Ah i dont feel like blogging anymore bye world!
I'm gonna go find the time post thing for me and dalston's blogzxzx. Hahaha.

Maybe I'll post a little more later toodles! :)

2009-07-05T13:07:00.002+08:00

Hello world!

Betcha all missed me right! I've not been blogging for days!
Hahaha well its a really short period of time actually.
Anyway, had a stayover last sat at dalston's house. My first time staying over at a friends house! :D Hahaha it was really fun cept we had a really lazy piece of shit lounging around while we did all the labour. Anw we watched three movies, boy girl thing, Mirrors and bolt. Mirrors was fucked up lor! I didnt watch it actually, but i watched the end it was fucking sick. yuck. Bolt is super cute. Too bad he's not a true breed, just a stupid animation. Pfft. Ate steamboat in the middle of the night at like, 2+ 3 am? Omg the soup base stank like urine! Hahaha. So we more or less fed on the hot dogs and seaweed chicken. Hahaha. After sleepovers went over to hougang central to get the chicken rice! Omg i've not eaten it for so long it was really nice! Cept a little cold cus I went home to change. Lol. Then we went to bran's house, and watched paris and milan and studied a teeny weeny BIT. Teenier than a polka dotted bikini. Omg why am I so lame today. Ended up sleeping! Was so exhausted. then woke up to american idol blasted damn loud. Haha. And we had to pack up and leave after that! And some inconsiderate asshole didnt martherfucking clean up after himself. So cool right! We provided him with free janitorial services! Stupid lazy inconsiderate parasitic asshole.

PRELIMS LAST WEEK! WHOLE WEEEEEKK.
Omg it sucked. School's a bitch! And i was late once! Wasted one late form in the first week of schl!?! omg so sad I've got one less day to sleep in late. Sigh.

Went to Plaza Sing with heather dear yesterday! WAS UBERLY FUN!!!! Omg we went about looking at clothes buying earrings making fun of things. Ate KFC for lunch :D Haha disturbed the stupid counter ldy. Was so idiotic she kept refusing to give us all thighs and kept bargaining with me! She said what, three thighs one dumstick can? I said CANNOT and her eyes were like shocked at my response. Then we bargained a little more and ended up we still couldn't get all drum. What happened to the customer is always right?! Bitch. Then we went over to CP to get her ear pierced. Haha kept annoying her to pierce her tragus with me. Stupid woman wouldn't budge! Tsk. Studied under bran's block, well we talked and played around more actually. We were doing my hair heather's hair and doing my ear RING. Yay i've got a loop on my second ear hole! Haha. Heather went home after that. Bran and I went over to CP hoping to eat macdonalds, but wthell it was 11pm already. And mac was sleeping( i wanted to type macs, its macs right!? But everyone's gonna be a bitch and say its MAC) So we went over to pasamalam to buy ramily ( i still think its ramli) burger and big gulp, which bran and I mixed into some weird concoction tasted bloody weird! And herbal tea eggs. And did i mention that void decks are so hard to get!? We walked about for dont know how many blocks in search of a proper one! But all was either occupied or HAIRY or dirty. Ended up we found one perfectly clean one. Omg was starving so bad, ramily burger never tasted so good :D
Sent me home after that, and i read breaking dawn till four am. Lol i have no idea why I'm reading breaking dawn again. So annoying. I already know the whole entire story. But oh well, its really nice. So its getting addicting. Bet i'm gonna look for twilight again really soon, and start the whole saga cycle again -.- ?? omg i better start reading other books or i'm gonna be stuck in the twilight saga. Wtf.

Okay I'm gonna go get ready. Today will be the day I'm gonna soak up the sun and lose calories! Haha I'm expecting so much from a round vollyball. Lol. Bye world! ;)

2009-07-01T19:13:00.002+08:00

I changed my blogskin! Yay! Is duperly happy right now :D

Cause when one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth i could be.

2009-06-30T00:25:00.002+08:00

Oh and Yuxiang gave me a keychain! Its a pink lollipop that lights up whenever there's radiation or something around it. :) His mom passed it to me, she was really cute. :D
Its really sweet, although i have it before. When i plucked out the plastic tab, the whole lollipop lighted up, really cute and colourful. I love it all the same, I feel like I just recieved a jab of hope. I really felt rather, upset just now. Seeing the lollipop lights up cheers me up. Haha like a rainbow. Its hard to get sweet surprises everyday isn't it? Yuxiang really makes my day pretty much all the time. Thank you :)

I've not studied SS. Yes it's bloody hell 12.30. Am i'm still fucking blogging. Posted three times today. Im' crazy, but i really lost the study momentum. Thank god i'm starving. At least it keeps me awake. Goodnight world! I'm gonna be spongebob for the next two hours and try to absorb as much as I humanely can.

& I dislike this blog skin so much. Dont know why the hell got this weird gay electric blue coloured words. Hate it, it doesn't go well with everything. Just like, an outcast. Its sad to be outcasted. I'm gonna put an end to its misery soon enough. I'll find time to edit my skin tmr. And i have four dots of body acne :( I dont know where they come from but they're really pink and red. So annoyingly painful. Omg very hungry.

Sweetest dreams everyone, and thank you Yuxiang! (;

2009-06-30T00:04:00.002+08:00

You Belong With Me
You're on the phone
With your girlfriend
She's upset
She's going off about
Something that you said
She doesn't get your humor
Like I do

I'm in my room
It's a typical tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music
She doesn't like
She'll never know your story
Like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear t-shirts
She's cheer captain
And i'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
You belong with me.

Walking the streets
With you and your worn out jeans
I can't help thinking
This is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench
Thinking to myself
Hey, isn't this easy?

And you've got a smile
That could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in awhile
Since she brought you down
You say you're fine
I know you better than that
Hey whatchu doing
With a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain
I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day
When you wake up and find
That what you're looking for
Has been here the whole time

If you could see
That i'm the one
Who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you
See you belong with me
Standing by and
Waiting at your backdoor
All this time
How could you not know
Baby
You belong with me
You belong with me.

[Instrumental]

Oh, I remember
You driving to my house
In the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know you're about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see
That i'm the one
Who understands
Been here all along
So why can't you see?
You belong with me.

Have you ever thought
Just maybe
You belong with me?

2009-06-29T21:06:00.002+08:00

This is my 445th post! omg MJ's was 444. HAHA diediedie. But he's already dead la wthell.

In life, there're no shortcuts.
Really, i just had my lesson learnt. Its really rather lame so just navigate off( i wanted to say fuck off but i need to cut down on vulgarities. Being like some shallow bitch vulgarising everywhere isn't gonna get me a job or a husband) If your'e gonna laugh and say that this is stupid. Haha I'm so sensitive and paranoid right.
Anw, I was taking out my Keychains- Big lanyard with two small keychains= little miss shy and stylus, so that i can put on the new keychain Yuxiang got me. I didnt bother to take out the small ones so i went for the big one instead. Then it all got tangled martherfuckingly bad because the small key chains were too huge. It's really complicated. All I know is that i had to go all the way back, re-entangle all the shit, still, just to take it all out. Then I took the small ones out one by one. So annoying right? No cheaters no shortcuts.

I just watched desperate housewives. Its really sad. Edie died. She's fucking dead. Why's everyone dying!? Well she got murdered actually. But still, she lived her life well. What have i done in my life? I've not lived enough to say that I'm really to die without regrets. The only things stopping me is that I've not found true love. And its only considered so if you're really content with your husband, and he still loves you, care for you, kisses you up till the day you die, and have never ever cheated on you or even considered it. That, is true love.

Would you want to die without tasting what it's really like?

2009-06-26T20:27:00.001+08:00

I lost all my links! Please tag if you see this post and wish to be relinked! Otherwise i'll have to go bloghopping for your links again T.T

Cheers! Stay over tmr at Dal's YAY! :D

2009-06-26T15:50:00.007+08:00

MICHEAL JACKSON IS DEAD!! )))))))))))))))))))):
Omg just when I'm starting to drool over his songs. His songs are really nice! And I'm not done learning his "beat it" drumline thing. Omg its fucking shocking. I was sleeping this morning and Dad came into the room to wake me up, or annoy me lol. Dad :" Latest news!! MICHEAL JACKSON IS DEAD!" He didnt sound so cheerful but he was sort of hollering. Its really really Devastating. King of pop = dead. I wont like the new King of pop. Unless he's called micheal jackson too, and does the moonwalk and grabs his dick dancing. Or maybe wearing loooong white socks with black shiny shoes. Otherwise hell he shall go. Its fucking scary! One minute he's preparing for his next concert in London after his Child molestation/abuse hoo ha thing and the next thing he suffered a cardiac arrest and HE'S FUCKING DEAD NOW. I've never felt so affected by a celebrity's death! And to think I discriminated against Micheal Jackson before because he's a paedophile. But so what! He produces great music! And he's the only guy on earth who managed to turn from black to white. When i was listening to his songs I could really picture him dancing and all. But now that he's dead I'm like listening to a dead guy's song =_= That's so weird. And i really wanted to hear new songs or see his new concert videos. BUt he's dead and rotting away right now. That's so sad. I wonder if Neverland is still functioning. I'd really want to go there on my honeymoon. Sigh. And its amazing how many people are affected, AMAZING. Everyone of different culture race and colour(hahaha) are fucksad over his death. I guess it brings the world together.
You see, life is so unpredictable. Just when you never know, you could just plop dead on the ground, and never wake up again. Not even if you grovel on your knees and crawl to Satan( or king of hell or Death reaper) and beg him to return you your life. You will never see your loved ones again! Or accomplish what you wanted to do. Or even tell your crush you're crushing on him lol! I'm really sad. I didnt expect Micheal to die so fast. Fuck it feels like I lost my toes or something. Leg would be like my friends dying. Why! Why must he die! Nevertheless, I shall post all the songs that's really HOT, all the way when you were a fricking sperm and egg up till now, a half grown human. Cheers.

Well much as i dont want to say RIP Micheal Jackson, since it's so cliche everyone's saying it. But i really do hope you really ' Rest in peace' finally from all the child molestation accusations, and dysfunctional Neverland and all your plastic surgery uproar. It will be the day you're set "free". Serious, I really hope you go all the way up to Heaven and ROCK IT. Show God that cutting your time down here will just make you go up there and make it all bloody noisy! Hahaha. Do the moon walk and make him envious. Your songs will forever live in the world's heart. Yesterday will be the day that the world lost the greatest king of pop ever. RIP, Micheal Jackson.

BEAT IT LYRICS
[1st Verse]
They Told Him Don't You Ever Come Around Here
Don't Wanna See Your Face, You Better Disappear
The Fire's In Their Eyes And Their Words Are Really Clear
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[2nd Verse]
You Better Run, You Better Do What You Can
Don't Wanna See No Blood, Don't Be A Macho Man
You Wanna Be Tough, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It
Just Beat It, Beat It

[3rd Verse]
They're Out To Get You, Better Leave While You Can
Don't Wanna Be A Boy, You Wanna Be A Man
You Wanna Stay Alive, Better Do What You Can
So Beat It, Just Beat It

[4th Verse]
You Have To Show Them That You're Really Not Scared
You're Playin' With Your Life, This Ain't No Truth Or Dare
They'll Kick You, Then They Beat You,
Then They'll Tell You It's Fair
So Beat It, But You Wanna Be Bad

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It

[Chorus]
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Who's Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right

[Chorus]
Just Beat It, Beat It, Beat It, Beat It
No One Wants To Be Defeated
Showin' How Funky Strong Is Your Fight
It Doesn't Matter Who's Wrong Or Right
Just Beat It, Beat It
Beat It, Beat It, Beat It

BILLIE JEAN LYRICS
[1st Verse]
She Was More Like A Beauty Queen From A Movie Scene
I Said Don't Mind, But What Do You Mean I Am The One
Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round
She Said I Am The One Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round

[2nd Verse]
She Told Me Her Name Was Billie Jean, As She Caused A Scene
Then Every Head Turned With Eyes That Dreamed Of Being The One
Who Will Dance On The Floor In The Round

[Bridge]
Mama Always Told Me Be Careful Of What You Do
And Don't Go Around Breaking Young Girls' Hearts
And Mother Always Told Me Be Careful Of Who You Love
And Be Careful Of What You Do 'Cause The Lie Becomes The Truth

[Chorus]
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son

[3rd Verse]
For Forty Days And Forty Nights
The Law Was On Her Side
But Who Can Stand When She's In Demand
Her Schemes And Plans
'Cause We Danced On The Floor In The Round
So Take My Strong Advice, Just Remember To Always Think Twice
(Do Think Twice)

[4th Verse]
She Told My Baby That's A Threat
As She Looked At Me
Then Showed A Photo Of A Baby Cries
Eyes Would Like Mine
Go On Dance On The Floor In The Round, Baby

[Bridge]
People Always Told Me Be Careful Of What You Do
And Don't Go Around Breaking Young Girls' Hearts
She Came And Stood Right By Me
Then The Smell Of Sweet Perfume
This Happened Much Too Soon
She Called Me To Her Room

[Chorus]
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
She's Just A Girl Who Claims That I Am The One
But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, But The Kid Is Not My Son
She Says I Am The One, She Says He Is My Son
She Says I Am The One
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover
Billie Jean Is Not My Lover

HEAL THE WORLD LYRICS

There's A Place In
Your Heart
And I Know That It Is Love
And This Place Could
Be Much
Brighter Than Tomorrow
And If You Really Try
You'll Find There's No Need
To Cry
In This Place You'll Feel
There's No Hurt Or Sorrow

There Are Ways
To Get There
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

If You Want To Know Why
There's A Love That
Cannot Lie
Love Is Strong
It Only Cares For
Joyful Giving
If We Try
We Shall See
In This Bliss
We Cannot Feel
Fear Or Dread
We Stop Existing And
Start Living

Then It Feels That Always
Love's Enough For
Us Growing
So Make A Better World
Make A Better World...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

And The Dream We Were
Conceived In
Will Reveal A Joyful Face
And The World We
Once Believed In
Will Shine Again In Grace
Then Why Do We Keep
Strangling Life
Wound This Earth
Crucify Its Soul
Though It's Plain To See
This World Is Heavenly
Be God's Glow

We Could Fly So High
Let Our Spirits Never Die
In My Heart
I Feel You Are All
My Brothers
Create A World With
No Fear
Together We'll Cry
Happy Tears
See The Nations Turn
Their Swords
Into Plowshares

We Could Really Get There
If You Cared Enough
For The Living
Make A Little Space
To Make A Better Place...

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

Heal The World
Make It A Better Place
For You And For Me
And The Entire Human Race
There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

There Are People Dying
If You Care Enough
For The Living
Make A Better Place
For You And For Me

You And For Me

You And For Me
Make A Better Place
You And For Me
Make A Better Place
You And For Me
Make A Better Place
You And For Me
heal the wordl we live in
You And For Me
save it for our children
You And For Me
heal the world we live in
You And For Me
save it for our children
You And For Me
heal the world we live in
You And For Me
save it for our children
You And For Me
heal the world we live in
You And For Me
save it for our children

Earth Song lyrics

What about sunrise
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain...
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine...
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shed before
Did you ever stop to notice
The crying Earth the weeping shores?

Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah

What have we done to the world?
Look what we've done.
What about all the peace,
That you pledge your only son?
What about flowering fields?
Is there a time?
What about all the dreams,
That you said was yours and mine?

Did you ever stop to notice,
All the children dead from war?
Did you ever stop to notice,
The crying Earth the weeping shores?

Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah

I used to dream
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far

Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah
Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah

Hey, what about yesterday
(What about us)
What about the seas
(What about us)
The heavens are falling down
(What about us)
I can't even breathe
(What about us)
What about the bleeding Earth
(What about us)
Can't we feel its wounds
(What about us)
What about nature's worth
(ooo, ooo)
It's our planet's womb
(What about us)
What about animals
(What about it)
We've turned kingdoms to dust
(What about us)
What about elephants
(What about us)
Have we lost their trust
(What about us)
What about crying whales
(What about us)
We're ravaging the seas
(What about us)
What about forest trails
(ooo, ooo)
Burnt despite our pleas
(What about us)
What about the holy land
(What about it)
Torn apart by creed
(What about us)
What about the common man
(What about us)
Can't we set him free
(What about us)
What about children dying
(What about us)
Can't you hear them cry
(What about us)
Where did we go wrong
(ooo, ooo)
Someone tell me why
(What about us)
What about babies
(What about it)
What about the days
(What about us)
What about all their joy
(What about us)
What about the man
(What about us)
What about the crying man
(What about us)
What about Abraham
(What was us)
What about death again
(ooo, ooo)
Do we give a damn

Aaaaaaaaah Aaaaaaaaah

Got tagged by ERNEST! Hahaha its been dont know how many bloody dog years since I've been tagged to do a quiz! So sad T.T So dumb to do a quiz after MJ died, I know. Or maybe i should be wallowing or something. But the world moves on. Life goes on. So hell ya i'm doing this quiz!

A. Aariano Wong
1) Do you love this person? I did! Up till yesterday night he said something bloody fucked up and I lost all the love. LOL.
2) Is this person your enemy? No la its not that bad!
3) Is this person taller than you? Almost everyone is taller than me.

B. Brandon Yeo.
1) What do you really think of this person? Weirdly bloody clever when he's a fucking slacker. HAHA.
2) What’s their favourite color? Orange! Same as his sweet heart! Guess who!
3) Ever danced with them? Nope! i've never danced with anyone.

C. Chua Wei Qi ANDRA.
1) Do you like this person? I dont really have a choice but I love her! Hahaha.
2) Where did you meet this person? When i was born, this really hairy bushy eyebrow girl towered over me and went :" My new mei mei! :D "
3) How old is she/he? 19 on 30 october :D

D. Dalston yong.
1) How long have you known him/her? One year plus two? Its incredibly short.
2) Biggest regret? Pinching him ytd haha!

E. Eugene Tan
1) Have you met their parents? Nope
2) Worst thing about this person? He has this weird moustache thing now that looks like pube hair!
3) Best thing about this person? Used to sing with me :D

F. Fain
1) Have you ever dated this person? Nope!
2) When is the next time you will see him/her? When school reopens?
3) Do you go to school with them? Nope.

G. Georgina G
1) Are they a good listener? haha I think so, we're not close friends.
2) Have you ever lied to this person? Nope.
3) Is this person nice? Yeap really sweet!

H. HEATHER LEEE hubbaye!
1) What year are they in? IN WHAT.
2) Is he/she your best friend? My hubbaye does taht count! (:
3) Ever done something illegal with this person? Nope!

I. Ian
1) What is this person’s favourite food? Idontknow
2) Where did you meet this person? Band or class i guess.
3) Do you trust them? Dont know him well enough

J. Jingyiii!
1) Do they have any siblings? Her little brother!
2) Do you know their favourite song? She likes almost everything lor
3) What would you do if they confessed they liked you? Yes, love in fact! Hahaha countless times :D

K. Kelly
1) How old were you when you first met? I guess when i was sec two
2) How did you meet? band!
3) Ever danced with this person? Nope.

L. LUCINDA LESBO!
1) What would you do if you had never met this person? Life would be sad, and there wont be 13/02 anymore):
2) Do you like him/her? LOVE in fact!
3) Would you go to Disney World with this person? Of course! who's paying! Hahaha yes i would (;

M. MICHELLE = MYSHELL
1) Is this person older than you? I'm a year older.
2) Is this person single? Yes.
3) How many times do you communicate with them in a week? Whenever she's online, or when i see her in school :D

N. Nathanael.
1) Is this person your boyfriend/girlfriend? NO
2) Have you seen this person cry? NO
3)Do you know this person’s middle name? NO MIDDLE NAME

O. Ong Cheehui ERNEST
1) Are you related? Friends! Since sec one. Hahaha
2) Could you live with this person? I heard he has bad habits!
3) Do you believe this person is gay? i guess so HAHA

P. Priscilla
1) Have you ever been to the mall with this person? nope i think. Or maybe clarinet outing?
2) How about a sleepover with them? nope.
3) Does this person have a job? In a jc! haha

Q.
1) Does this person drink alcohol? No .
2) Have you seen this person dance? No.
3) where do they work ? Don't know .

R. RAVEENA
1) Have you heard this person sing? Nope she doesnt sing she bounces.
2) Do you think this person will repost this? nope she's too busy filling oil.
3) Whats one thing you would change about this person? Well, teach her more comebacks. She only knows Whatever.

S. SHI YA TIAN JOLYN! :D
1) Is this person taller than you? Whats with this question! YEAH LA
2)you enjoy spending time with him/her? Of course! Beats doing this quiz lol!
3) Do they live close to you? She lives in punggol field there! So far T.T

T. TAN MENG LIANG
1) What you do anything for him/her? What qns is this? What you do? Do what? Or do you mean WOULD!
2) Have you been to his/her house? Yeah! Seen sucker too haha!
3) Does this person eat shit? Nope but i know you do.

U. U
1) Is this person in a relationship? Are you?
2) Do you know where he lives? Where do you live?
3) What colour hair does this person have? What's yours?

V. Valerie Loh
1) Do you see this person alot? Chinese new year, visiting!
2) When did you meet her/him? ohmygod the last time was bloody long ago. I think febuary.
3) Is this person your friend? Well, blood related! Haha.

W. Weihongsss
1) Is this person quiet or loud? More or less both.
2) Name a friend that both of you are close too? Both? none i guess. Heather? O.o
3) What color eyes does this person have? Black

X. Xiaoting.
1) Why are you friends with him/her? WHAT WHY, Why the hell do you care?
2) Have you ever gone anywhere with them? DUH In the showers too! HAHAHA!
3) What is one thing you would change about them? There's nothing to change. If there's a change she's not her!

Y. yucker.
1) Does this person wear make-up? No .
2) Does this person play any instruments? no.
3) What is their favourite sport? Yucking.

Z. Z
1) Does this person have MSN/AIM? i.
2) Ever gone shopping with him/her? Dont.
3) Does this person have any special skills.? Know

I'm not tagging! just do this if you feel like it. But its not much fun lol!

2009-06-17T00:53:00.005+08:00

THANK YOU EVERY SINGLE ONE OF YOU DEARS WHO CELEBRATED MY BIRTHDAY FOR ME ON 16th june! :D I LOVE YOU ^^

Today is a long day, but it happened all so quickly. I slept at bout like five last night, or later i dont know. I was super tired when i woke up in the morning. I prepared and packed my bag, I thought we were going for swimming after my cake baking for yuxiang! Hahaha i really packed my clothes, wore the attire, brought sunblock! Left the house at bout 11 ++, to go to redman to buy the remaining ingredients for the cake. When the lift door opened, WOW i saw Choonkun's maid Yuni carrying and dragging god knows how many plastic bags. So i helped her to carry everything in, and she said choonkun was home! @#!*&^@!&*^%#* ask him to go with me then he didnt say he was home! Anw Choonkun went with me to get the ingredients. Then bla blah, I was really thinking that I'd be late for Swimming cus it was already one something when we started baking. And i really wanted to be on time cus I've always been late for our outings and i sincerely wanted to be on time. Then Choonkun kept saying :" Aiya late one over hour nvm one la! They will understand one!!" Then I was like NO!! I dont want to be late! Omg i swear choonkun never acted so well in his entire life. He knew everything and fucking didnt say anything at all OMG.

Called Dalston, and he said he needed time and he'd be late, Bout three thirty? okay, it was then bout two forty five. Walao then I called again and he suddenly said he was at brandon's house! At like 3.20!? Then i tot meet three thirty and he said he was bored and went to cp and there was nobody. So he went to Bran's house first. THEN I THOUGHT HE SAY THREE THIRTY!? Omg I'm so dumb and gullible I fell for that =.= ''

So Choonkunisisssssy and I packed up and HEADED OVER TO BRAN'S.
DALSTON: " Where are you all? Exactly where? I'm very bored can hurry up?" Rush overrrrrrr. reached and WAH his house was like damn dark! Then went into the toilet to wash my feet. "AHHHHHHH!!" Someone screamed or shouted or something! lol it was really loud and i thought it was what?? Brandon's sister and was thinking, What why's she screaming!? And out came some long hair girl, OMG ZHENG XIAOTING!! :D Like what wtfuck's she doing here i tot she's late?? Then they started singing happy birthday songs. I was EXTREMELY BLOODY SHOCKED! Omg i was super happy lor! joy just spread through me and I started crying T.T
Seriously, I'm very touched. I really didnt know that I'd have a celebration, it was totally unexpected. It NEVER crossed my mind. AT ALL. And I was really sad cus I'd tot I had to go back to bukit batok without a celebration with you guys and it was so devastating to even think of.

Okay anw it was so cool! Everyone just started popping out of nowhere! Like really everyone!! Namely, aaron brandon already there (choonkun already with me duh) Dalston already there too, xiaoting, James yoongluck mengliang Joshua omg really everyone they just popped out of NOWHERE. Well i think the storeroom la like illegal immigrants all the bangladeshi workers ALI BABA hired. Hahaha! :D Ernest, Heather Shumei and Weilong came later and meng left early ):

Well they sang a happy birthday song for me! :D Quite a few times because i had alot of "cakes". Haha! The first cake was a BAZHANG, I really had no idea why its a bazhang, but nevermind its the main course, then i had dessert which was an apple, and CARROT JUICE MY FAVOURITE! :D All came with candles and birthday songs! :D
Then, the real cake came, it was made with love, a chocolate ice cream cake! Like really! Its sponge cake with Ice cream layered in between the slices, painstakingly "painted" on. ^^ It was really nice i loved it a whole lot! I ate a little and i walked about chatted and when i turned around... ITS ALL GONE!! I didnt get to eat much of my birthday cake! T.T It was really nice la!

And this is the best part... MY PRESENT!!
I recieved a big fat expensive ( i dont know how much lol!) PILLOW! :D:D
Its my birthday card. So sweet right! Its really big and comfy, and Anti dust mite!:D It has a long note and everyone's signatures :D Then behind is a portrait of me drawn by yoongluck! Thank you so much! :D Its really nice! Its me like wearing those coconut shells and leafy hawaiin skirt LOL! Its really pretty! Haha Xiaoting suggested it So its not because Yoongluck is tiko. Anw the "ME" on the pillow is really slim lor! Doesnt look like me at all. Haha only the spectacle part. Cus i'm so poofed T.T But nvm I can slim down! (if i want to really badly so badly i'm gonna die). And also they didnt forget to draw the MOLE on the nose! Haha i have one too on the left side. :D Thank you! And yes, its the biggest, comfy-est, BEST birthday CARD I have and will ever recieve! :D I love it to the MXM! Hahaha :D Who gets to sleep on their birthday cards!!?? NO ONE IN THE WHOLE ENTIRE WORLD, BUT ME! :D:D:D

Present number two is a SPATULA! :D Haha it cant be used la, because it has "Happy 16th" With two hearts on it. Stuck on By dearest Dalston and Xiaoting, Crystal by crystal with super glue. T.T I hope both your fingers are fine! Its really nice and sweet, its pink crystal they painstakingly plucked from the sticker. I'm very touched thank you so much!!!!!! :D+ (:+ ^^
PRESENT NUMBA THRREEEE!! A small little box! PINK AGAIN!!! HAHA. i love light pink. Anw It has ANTI WRINKLE EYE CREAM, I have no idea why really! And stars folded by everyone personally! :D Haha I heard Aaron had a really tough time learning to fold a star. Thank you everyone for the patience and love put in! :D There are also strips of sweet messages inside (: Some are sweet la. LOL :D

Then we settled down and we cleared up everything, And we sat down to WATCH BAO LING DENG! Omg it was damn lame la the show! Like this guy tried to get the Elixir pills, and he has to reach it at level thrity two, and he fought his way up. cus he barged into the celestial palace or something. What the hell right!?! And while he was getting the pills for his true love or something, she wasted her blood writing a stupid letter and killed herself/MIA. She could've waited. Wasted his effort! Hahaha. Well, it was rather dumb so we went downstairs to play the playground!! :D

We played Ice and water and some blind mice, sat down and played concentration and some ouch obi. It was really fun lor! But of course la very tiring i was the catcher twice! And had to keep runnning around I nearly died wtfuck I've not been running around for a very very long time! Hahaha. :D Anw i was catcher with Joshua and Ernest once each. Omg the one with ernest sucked lor! We caught everyone and then suddenly :" One two three!!" Everyone ran out of the prison area!! All saved!! BY BRANDON YEO walao eh so cool huh Behind enemy lines! Lol Then it was damn bloody idiotic and we had to start recatching everyone again. -.- Now i know how asm and xt felt like. But theirs was better! Shorter omg mine felt so long. Anw they ran into each other, literally and i think asm hurt her ankles and Xiaoting sprained her toes. LOL Loudhailers ah. Anw there was this point they were really noisy and screaming at everyone lol! It was damn funny and cute la! TWO Loudhailers kpkb. Haha! :D

Then it started to rain ): WHICH DIDNT IN THE END LOL!!! Went to seven eleven to get refreshments, i was really exhausted and also to take group photo! ^^ Its all with Xiaoting darling so I'm unable to post it now. Haha :D Then we had this infatuation with the little miss and mister, and everyone started buying a whole load of it! Haha, I have sunshine and miss chatterbox(2) , and everyone had one :D We're all hanging on our phones! Hahaha and there's even MR GREEDY FOR MENG! :D
So cool right! everyone got different designs ;D Then we realised that we were getting cheated because everyone was starting to get the same designs, so we went to COMPASSPOINT! but OutOfStock =.=
Then all of us headed home, but me dals choonkunnissy and Weilonged. We went to Choonkun's house to finish up the cake and then popped over to YUXIANGS'S HOUSE!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXIANG! You're 15 yay! :D:D
Went to Yuxiangs house to pass him the cake and my letter, But we celebrated with his family instead. :D I had so much fun. Anw Junejune is a really BIG DOG. I tot she's some jack russel! Lol turned out to be a Jack Russel+beagle+Terrier and one more breed i forgot. She really huge! Hahaha. She was actually locked in the room cus Yuxiang's mum was afraid that she'd get Naughty and start disturbing or scaring us. Haha (: But Junejune looked really sad and she laid on the floor emoing. I let her out! :D Haha actually i dont really like dogs. Because they have bad breath and salivate alot, but i like patting them, haha soft and mushy. Then she started to lick everyone, hands legs and all. Haha! I didnt mind because she didnt have bad breath and she doesnt have like mucus-like saliva (eew) And it evaporated rather quickly. Haha but Dalston didnt like it! He got so disturbed he hid behind the wall at the kitchen lol! :D
We celebrated Yuxiang's birthday with his family :D Sang songs and he cut TWO cakes, omg my cake was really a mess and it was really ugly and taste weird ): and the words were not clear enough for him to read! T.T I really thought it would turn out better. But the Icing thing hates me. The icing came out VERY wiggly like SUPER ITALICS and it wasn't legible. But i know Yuxiang loves it right!! :D Haha, and Thank you love! :D For giving me a beautiful piece of art! :D Its really sweet and cute, He painted a lotus on a lotus pad for me. In light pink! :D:D Its big and pink haha! :D And also a really nice bracelet from MU-EE. Its custom-made? And it has small pink crystals on the J! :D I love it so much thank you! :D
YUXIANG! :D Thank you so much for the pink and BIG lotus you painted for me! And also the beautiful bracelet you went to get me, i really love it a whole lot, appreciate all the effort thank you! :D I'm sorry my cake looked so horrible! T.T I'll make a better one okay! dont tell you when! hahaha. Thank you for always being there for me, glass bottles forever, promise! (; *hook pinkies* :D

I had the best time of my life today, really. Everything could not have turned out better! (; Cept for the cake i'm working on it! :D

And for the little star papers some of you guys wrote on i'm gonna respond here! :D
some has no names BUT DUH I know who wrote which :D
Random order!

Brandon: Happy birthday JoanChuaWeiYing! :D Must last long with Oscar ah! :D:D:D
ME: BRANNY YEO!! Oscar doesnt exist la! You ah! Always the idiot to change my notes and write Oscar Oscar! Hahaha! Lol. Anw Thanks for the celebration today! Thanks for your house, your efforts, your mum's ang bao :x ! you woke up damn early too right? Thank you so much for spending all the time :D I really appreciate it. So maybe i can overlook the Oscar thing haha! And I'm sorry that I was so vulgar at your house today. Sorry! I kept slipping. Sorry! Also thank you for being ever so patient and teaching me matha and chem, thank you really. Much of the credits of my grades would go to you (: Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

Haha so fun like picking Toto number.
NEXT UP DALSTON YONG! you think you never write name i dont know isit! Haha too bad i recognize your handwriting! But i dont recognize the remaining anonymous ones lol!

DALSTON: Happy birthday Joan! May all your BIMBO wishes come true!
ME : Old man! Hahaha :D You're so idiotic i'm not bimbo lor i just happen to like pink and say omg all the time! But if i'm really a bimbo and that shallow you wont even talk to me, much less chat for long ok! Haha! Thank you for waking super early at like 5 am, and planning my birthday last minute when you had to lie your'e gonna shit and sleep. Haha! :D I really didnt know, today is an UBER suprise. Thank you for risking your fingers with the superglue! omg it really ate into the metal a little I hope your fingers are still functioning well. really! I dont want you to have kwaker oak(dont know how to spell lol!) like fingers! Haha. Thank you for the chocolate you smashed on me today! Lol! Least its on my face dont have to wash it with bleach like last time! Then my skin will peel off again.omg old ppl skin, kwaker oake! omg so bad-.- Haha. And really, for being there all the time, I appreciate it! (: oh, HAHA, alibaba! The video was damn funny! :D lol! Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

yay picking again!

Aariano WONG! : " Hey! Happy bday! Muahahahahahahaha! Best wishes!
ME: Hey Aariano! Thank you for learning how to fold a star today to fold for me! HAHA! I heard you had a tough time. Poor thing. Dont worry I'll learn how to fold something for you too on your birthday, like idk braces :D red ones!! :D Haha thank you for everything you've done! And I didnt mean to hit you after you knocked your head lol! I really didnt know so i just tapped you in case you guys ran out of prison again! So i just have to confirm again. But you guys ran out anyway! =.=!?!
And also thanks for all the rubbish and laughs you've brought us. :D Although i like to disturb you and make fun of your braces and asthma(not really la asthma) But really its not mean its funny! Anw I need braces more lol so its really just fun!! :D Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

And this has no name too, but i guess it should be James or Joshua O.o

ANONYMOUS: Happy birthday joan! :] <- from who! TO JAMES: I really dont know from who, but firstly, I'd thank you guys one by one first! haha James first since he has an A. Thank you for spending my birthday with me! And when you took that dirty toilet paper omg i really tot it was shit lor! At first i thought it was cream and it turned out to be some brown thing! then you said your shit. LOL omg scared me to death, i didnt want shit on my face. Haha! And thanks for helping out everything today! :D Haha oh yeah what did you eat o.o SORRY! Anw i'm really sorry for smacking your just-healed-recently-broken/fractured ankle the other day. I thought it was your knee, i really didnt mean to cause you GREAT PAIN. But i helped you scratch your back! Hahaha. And thanks for the funny stuff you always crap about! Fun joy and laughter :D Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO JOSHUA: Hey thanks for celebrating my birthday with me! Hahaha Well i really dont mean it when i call you Chinaboy but its just you know la for entertainment haha! :D Thanks for making time today! And that you had to rush home after that. Sorry! And .... -imitates SOMEONE from quite some time ago. - :" I've got BICEPS!" Hahaha welll you'd pretty much know who the hell is that right! Hahaha just kidding okay! Had fun at catching zomg so tiring but great! :D Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO XIAOTING: Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me! :D I really really hope your toes are feeling better! And thank you so much for today! :D You're the first to surprise me lol! I tot you were mildred cus i saw her sitting there watching tv. LOL. And i really had fun fighting just now, lol to smash the chocolate! Hahaha. And sorry about the screaming thing. :x I didnt mean to make you angry. Really. Also thank you for the spatula! Haha you risked your fingers too for the super glue. I really love it, pink! :D Wash your hands again k! Cus the superglue is eating into the metal a little later you get like rashes or skin problem. *If you wash your body was your hands too! -clap clap, clap- * And the coconut neh neh you ask YL draw right! Aiyo you always! So tiko! Hahaha but its really nice! :D And yes i know, ice and water was idiotic, dont worry i experience it too T.T Hahaha (: And thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO ERNEST: Hey why so late today! Hahaha. Tuition right! I know I understand. Lol! but thanks for making it today! really :D Anw whathehell right ice and water! run around like fuck! Then kena scam everyone run free from prison. Omg. That was so idiotic and tiring haha! And the cb thing i was really just kidding. Its not part of your name I just wanted to goof around. Please dont take it to heart k! (: Thank you for celebrating my birthday with me! :D Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO MENGLIANG: Hey Meng! Thank you for making time to spend my bday with me! I know it was really last minute for you right? And you had to make time to join us. Thank you very much! Sorry you had to rush about or something. But i bet you had a fun time getting locked up in the storeroom right! And baking cakes that're made up of meatballs! Hahaha! Really thanks for making it today! Since you didnt make it last year. But its the present that matters! :D Haha and thanks for all the vulgarities and nonsense you always say and do! Hahaha omg you're really quite influential lor. Well, Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO WEILONG : Hey weilong! Thank you for turning up for the celebration! :D And Why're you afraid of the night! Haha Cute la, choonkun craps all the time what! how can you get affected by him! Haha and really you made it all fun! And i hope i get that Mr small is it that you want? I really want the miss shy or miss naughty haha! :D Well, Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO YOONGLUCK: Thanks for drawing the babe in my pillow!! Hahaha! :D Doesn't really look like me since i'm not so slim, and dont wear coconut shells. But my mole is there! And the specs haha! :D Thanks for taking time out to draw that! Really appreciated, sets a life time goal for me you know. Lol! Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

TO CHOONKUN(purple is gay, its happy) : HELLO! :D You're the last because... YOU AH! SO TOOT TOOT TODAY! But i said random order so too bad! HAHA :D Thank you for scamming me today and celebrating my birthday with me! Haha I'm sorry that we reached your house so late and took up so much time and resources at your house! But thank you! For giving me a place to bake :D I want to bake nice cakes! Heh heh heh so you know la hor! Haha! Anw thank you! For always so ji dong help me to carry heavy things, and pei me go to the minimart or dapao food and weird times of the day! You're almost like 7-11, just that you sleep and when you sleep you really dont respond to the phone. -.- Haha, thank you for acting so well today! I really didnt know you knew lor! I tot you got scammed too and that you'd still want to SLACK by the pool. lol! Well, Thank you so much for everything, I appreciate today to the MXM! :D

HEATHER AND ASM! YOU GET SMSes! Haha cus i've not read your sweet cards(I'm saving them for bedtime stories, savour slowly hor!) :D , and would really take sometime to post about it again when I GET TO TOUCH THE COMP AT BB. :DThank you for turning up today loves! And it was so last minute right! Asm you had to come all the way down from plaza sing? thank you babes! :D Love you both! :D :D :D Wait for me SMS! :D + ^^

2009-06-16T03:03:00.004+08:00

Omg i sound like such an evil and vengeful woman in my previous post.
I'm not. I'm really just upset about it. Oh well, its not easy to emphatise.
I'm tired its three am! Ah i have to go get my stuff from Redman tmr alone. For my Surprise for Yuxiang. Godzxzxz so tired nowzxzxz. Goodnight world! Sleeptight. Hope he'll love it! :D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YUXIANG LOVE! :D

2009-06-16T02:18:00.002+08:00

REVENGE.

After my O lvls, I swear. I'm WILL make you pay.
For all the tears my mother shed, all the sorrow, grief and pain she went through. All the time and money spent on everything. MY RESULTS MY HOME. Everything that we have lost and felt, I WILL MAKE YOU PAY, ONE MILLION BILLIONTH TIMES MORE. You took the harmony from my family, and yes, again you WILL PAY. I dont give shit if you're going to get it from hell anw, or Satan will personally whip you or slice your tongue and dismember your body bit by bit. No i dont give shit. Of course, I wont be so motherfucking stupid and land myself a lawsuit or get my ass into Jail, because what?? I have a brain. And I feel sorry for you that you didnt think of that. I will just DO my bit, and you can rot and die and go to hell for all I care, BECAUSE I HAD MY SHARE.

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned. Scorned indeed, no worries.
All you'll is just Karma and Retribution, you bloody motherfucker.
LET GO BITCH, HE BELONGS TO US.

2009-06-14T15:10:00.003+08:00

LAST BUT NOT LEAST!
The dengue-ticide i was telling bran about in my tagboard. Well, i couldn't find a Dengue or specific mosquito one. But so what! Its an insect so it'll work just right!
Hahaha. And this will really get rid of nasty shit ppl too.

OKAY BACK TO STUDYING. Popo's holding a sledgehammer. Hahaha bye world! :D

2009-06-14T14:37:00.006+08:00

YUMMAYE!

Hahah whoever who has never eaten beef steaks! Has never seen life because beefsteaks are the best! So this will be the first yum for the lost cyberspace tiko pek! (:

Some carl's jr burger. Omg man Aaron Wongsie would kill to eat this. Well, maybe a better looking burger instead! But what the heck the last time I ate Carl's Jr the burger was so huge i already had problem sinking my teeth in lor.

Sandwich! :D Its damn lame la not much ppl would kill to eat this. I think like most probably healthfreaks. LOL

This sandwich is to scare away all those dengue infected mosquitos and what nots brandon mentioned!

Chicken wings! BARBEQUED. Omg right!

You know what everyone is always so lazy. All go for park bbqs and all that shit, usually just to eat the bbq chickens( duh otherwise hot dogs meh!) Then everyone gives up on the chicken and eats hot dogs and fishballs instead! What the hell! Lazy ppl! Tsk.

Curry chicken/potato with rice! Actually this is my fave :D Best is those home cooked kind! Mum usually spams the chilli powder which is really idiotic but whatthehell is so nice you can't stop eating! :D

CHEESY PIZZAAAAA.
Tell me honestly. Wouldn't you KILL TO EAT THAT!

Well i just wanted to post Ice cream! Or banana split because Ice cream is like some kind of staple food right! hahaha. But i came across this instead and its pink and so cute! Sooooooo Strawberry it shall be! :D

Good ol' spagghetti! :D
I think the minced meat kinds with bacon slices are really nice! Carbonara too! My sister used to make it for me zomgzianos, it was really nice lor!

CARROT JUICE! This one's MY FAVOURITE :D
I really like it its really sweet and makes you feel damn uber bloody healthy and rejuvenated. But i think excess intake can cause yellowing of the skin or something O.O

2009-06-13T22:11:00.006+08:00

*CPR*
-Blows into blog's mouth, pumps the chest.- *no response*
OMG IS MY BLOG DEAD!? Can i still save it???
-Blows into blog's mouth again, pumps the chest one million times- *still no response*
WTFUCK. CHATTERBOX-CRAPFEST WAKE UP!!
-Takes a sledgehammer and prepares to lunge it towards the blog's face- *blog sits upright*
BLOG : " OKAY OKAY! Hibernation was too good okay! Cant i sleep awhile more?!? Stupid woman. Faster lah! Hurry and post whatever nonsense you want to here. I want to go back to sleep." *snores and flips over.* **flips because it's not three dimensional**

HELLO WORLD WORLD WORLD NAMELY BRANDON CHOONKUN DALSTON AND HEATHER(sorry couldn't put white ): )!! :D

Well, you know why these four only? Namely because these are the only ones that asked me to update! haha or hinted me to. Lol. Its okay. Everyone's too busy T.T
Lol anyway, everytime i neglect my blog, i'd just apologise. So here goes :
Dearest blog! I'm sorry for not updating for... erm about three weeks? Well, i can explain. ( okay this isnt very sincere) lol. Well, erm. *whispers* I've been in bukit batok for bout 5 days, four actually. And i've been studying. Serious. Me, studying. Like really sitting down. Okay so i've accounted my time for about one week, the other two weeks... i've been out frolicking. Sorraye! hahaha But it was really good fun! Like celebrating Jingyi goodies' birthday :D I'll update the pictures when i get my hands on them! Jingyi's birthday, celebrated at Seoul Garden and EAST COAST PARK! omg it was so fun! Anw this is supposed to be an apology lol. So i've pretty much summarised up what I've done and why I've not updated. Dui bu qi. Okay la forget it la! I'm apologising for some virtual thing what the hell!?!??!

Well, Dalston said something about some old man being lost in cyber space and dying in my blog ):

I don't want to have any smelly carcasses rotting and decomposing on my blog, so... I've decided. i'm gonna put up delicacies here! So that the lost cyberspace guy can be revived, and wake up to all the yumsies here and be like :" OMG I SHOULD FAINT HERE MORE OFTEN!! "

Well, I shall start with the food i love. Okay this is rather hard. I eat everything. Well everything edible. And I like very few things. Well i'm just gonna post up food that PPL WOULD KILL TO EAT.

2009-05-23T04:57:00.001+08:00

omg i just realised that I have three consecutive posts about TP6! haha so lame. ok i'm going to hit the sack! I'm so tired. Its 5 am! Chatted with YONG Dalston. ^^ hoho. Uh got tuition it the morning T.T omg kill me now. I've not done hmwk. Its okay i'm meeting heather. Hoho! GOODNIGHT WORLD! Sleep tight! (;

2009-05-23T04:32:00.007+08:00

going to jump! :D

camwhore, silly faces (:

HAPPY! :D

Food lol!
Jump! :D
I'm posing ok!
YUMMAYE! Lucinda behind:"omg what is joan doing."

GOODAYE! :D

Again! :D Love my hp sock loll Reflectizos.

Hmm I wonder why alwaysblack red white!

Rubbish food again haha! :D

LOVE :D

<3> CHEESE! ^^

CHEESE SOMEMORE!

hahaha first love picture!

Omg Lucinda is so tall i have to jump so bad to high-five with her T.T

Trying again! lol!

The set, its actually one whole block of wooden frame, its long doors. Then the cast would open the doors and walk out, with peranakan maids. smart right! They really clean up after every scene. So they're actually behind-the-scenes kids but they're part of the cast so cool! oh and there's a round swimming pool on the stage! Adrian Pang wore a swimming costume, and at one point a nude underwear, using a hat to cover his dick haha!!

Red black white again! :D

The set when the sun set. :D

2009-05-23T02:25:00.004+08:00

MUCH ADO ABOUT NOTHING

It was FANTASTIC, MAGNIFICENT, WONDERFUL, SPECTACULAR, SPLENDID, BAGUS, BRAVO!

It was THE BEST PLAY i have ever watched in my entire (short sixteen years) OF LIFE!

It was such a romantic play. Rather confusing actually at first. The story plot was confusing. Uber. Then they talked really quickly with british accents and it was even worse. Lol. But we got the hang of it, and it got very much better :D It was really nice! The view was great, the sound was great, the company was bagus. IT ROCKED! We ate and chatted and camwhored and all, it was really fantastic! I've never watched something live and fantastic. And picnic-ed! We had three picnic mats! Hahaha! Occupied a lot of space, and had alot of rubbish food lor, our KFC ultimate value box, Drinks, sarsi vanilla coke htwoO chrysanthnum, omg so much rubbish, and LAYS sour cream onion and DORITOS and some dried jackfruit thing jolyn brought. And prawn crackers. i fed some stupid insects with my blood, Omg so noble right. Actually I wasn't willing. They just bit me. Lol. Now my left ankle is swollen. T.T So sad. and pain.

you know what! Before we went for the concert, we dangling infront of the escalator, discussing where to go. Then there's this stupid bitch! ohmygodzianos so angry, she was like :"Hello!?" They we apologised, :" SORRY!" And she flashed a middle finger at US!!!! Wtfuck right! Hello? we're kids and we apologised ok! Fucked got so pissed that i kept screaming at her, while she happily ignored us as she went down the escalator. FUCK! Stupid fat bitch. Hate her la. But Lucinda teach me, saying that i cannot me angry. It will just make me unhappy. SO, i shall be nice and forgive and forget! Hahaha :D So lame.

Then we took a train back to sengkang, and did i mention! ON the way there was so fun! we were running to get a good seat, so fun! Like amazing race :D With all the food and everything. Hahaha. Then we were running and i was hugging on to the ice box. So heavy! Lol.

LUCINDA SOH did three stupid things!
#1 We asked ang mohs to help us take group photo after the show, and he was :" I'd love to! " So nice of him! Haha and I was like :" oh ok ok you press this button la hor" What the fuck i embarrass myself lor! LA HOR! =.=" Okay anw they were so nice and they helped us to take photos, And lucinda started to sing later :" I wanna be american IDIOT! " Wthell what is wrong with her right! omg then we got so paiseh we faster zao. AMERICAN IDIOT!
#2 Then when we were walking and screaming out way back, Lucinda started talking about Europeans, then this European lady jogged past, and Lucinda RAN AWAY AGAIN, say she scared that woman beat her up! So cute right! Still have!
#3 There was this malay or eurasian guy with curly hair, and Lucinda was standing directly behind him. Suddenly she pointed at his HEAD and was like :" OMG I WANT TO EAT MAGGIE MEE!! " And immediately regretted cus the guy stopped and turned around or something. LOL! it was so funny! Then she started pointing at the three and was like, :" Like maggie mee right!?" Wthell! Then Jolyn was like gong gong : " where got??" And didnt know what's going on.

Omg Lucinda's mouth is so big! Hahaha! :D Train ride back was really fun lor! We were really noisy shouting and throwing things about. I WANNA GO OUT AGAIN! :D

thank you TP6 for the fun day out! :D I will never forget it, watching a play in the moonlight, while picniking with my best buds, omg BLISS (:

2009-05-09T02:41:00.000+08:00

Lyrics | Beyonce lyrics - Single Ladies lyrics

2009-05-06T22:58:00.002+08:00

TODAY IS WEDNESDAY!
School ended really early today, NO SSP :D
But the weather was really warm. And i went to wait for Aaron today at his class, and dangled around. So ended up i went home one hour later. Then was late in meeting Meng I'm sorry! Went to dapao mac, studied under bran's house that block. Its amazing how I can sum up my whole day in less than fifty words. But when it comes to summary, I always motherfuckingly overshot by god knows how much. Oh my neutral one, what the fuck. Haha okay why so vulgar today i dont know. Hahaha. I want to have holidays. I'm so uber tired and wait the time now is eleven eleven! So cool! :D Haha okay sorraye, today was so warm! Uber. Studied/chatted till eight plus today, climbed the stairs home. Fourteen stories not bad haha! And decided that the toilet was really dirty and i washed, scrubbed it. omg i'm so tired now. I'm gonna zonk out anytime.

PRAY HARD THAT THERE'S NO ASSEMBLY TMR! Or my whole entire day/mood/happiness/whatever I will feel/fate/future will go down the drain. please pray really hard for us. *cross my fingers*

This is a really boring update. Yes i know. I wanted to upload photos. But wtheck? I lost my cable. I think maybe like, at Popo's house. So forget it. No pictures for quite sometime. Haha.

Mother's day is coming! Dont know what to buy for mummy. I'm gonna search up for strawberry shortcake recipe. And bake one for mummy! Hoho.

MID YEARS are coming. Good Luck to me. Study hard. Dont fall asleep anymore. Haha!

GOODNIGHT WORLD! (;

2009-04-29T21:58:00.005+08:00

HELLO WORLD.

Today is supposed to be a happy day. Had PICNIC with TP6 :D
Why happy? Because I passed my english common test papers. (: Today is supposed to be the happiest day of the week, I know. Because when i got back my papers I thought I saw a rainbow. Dear blog, i hope you remembered that i failed common test in Feb. I got like D7. And i did horribly. I didnt put in my best effort and i got horrid grades and i cried. But I picked myself up and told myself that i would pass my next paper. I even went through the hassle to write down tons of notes for my paper one, read the comprehension like it's my own divorce script, I used all my energy. I'm proud of myself for passing. I really am. I finally dont feel like such an english mute anymore, because i'm so much more inferior to everyone else. Every word I speak might be a mistake. But when i saw that i got A2 for paper one, although paper two wasnt very well done, six passes. And that i'm one of the six, though i passed by two marks. I really really felt happy. I've been waiting for the results for so damn long silently. Also in fear because i dont want to fail again. Just to see that i passed is really a relief. But i'm not happy. Because you're not. Please cheer up my loves. I'm sorry ):

Went to study after school today at Bran's house. Did chemistry. I'm more hardworking now. I hope. I'm gonna give my all for everything.

Oh and had picnic with my dearest TP6+YZ during recess. I forgot to bring Ribena ): I'm sorry. But i went to the canteen with jingyi to get packet drinks instead. Recess was so fun and uber funny (: I really had fun. thank god next week picnic again. Hahaha i'm gonna cook nice food! Lizhen anticipates my stir fried pasta hoho. I wont let you down! (;

And to dydyfloss, thank you for being there all the time. When i needed you the most. You're the only one who said you're proud of me (: I'm really glad to have you. Because you keep me going. (:

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i'm so glad
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you came across my blog
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on that day
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and decided i sounded nice
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and wanted to make friends with me (;
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that day is probably what is going to get us through the rest of our lives .

Because friends promise without fear, and this is what true friends are.

2009-04-28T22:38:00.002+08:00

HELLO WORLD !

It has been two weeks since i last blogged. I'm so sorry i lost my mood ): Haha well, the sorry is actually to my blog because i neglected it so much. And its so bad that i dont know where to start now.
You see, procrastination is a bad habit.
I procrastinated in updating, studying and coursework and it's all taking over the world and killing me! Okay maybe not the world domination part hahaha. Well i think mdm dewi hates me now i owed her coursework for so long. Sigh. I'm handing in tmr! With everything complete and nothing dangling or halfway done. I'm so proud of myself, i finally sat down to do my work ^^

HEATHER'S BIRTHDAY!
Went out to celebrate my dearest dear's birthday! It was such joy, extraordinary! haha extraordinary because we went to the arcade to play! It was so damn bloody fun! Went Downtown, had Just Acia for lunch, ate my Bibimbab :D (sorry angshumui i've not uploaded the pics haha!) And after that we walked about and shopped a little, and ended up in the Arcade! haha we played so many games, one was the nine button music hip hop or something thing, and each of us took two buttons, heather took three. And we played music! Like seriously real classic songs, it was soooo cooool! :D
Then we played some ball game thing, and omg i pulled a muscle and the next few days were horrible T.T
I'll scan in the neoprints soon! :D

Haha sunday was so cool :D Clique came over to my house (again :D) To watch movies! Xiaoting brought her Gerald along, and we watched YES MAN and THE EYE TEN! Hahaha xiaoting was such an idiot lor she screamed for fun and she was sitting beside me, i got the shock of my life and screamed like fuck! Omg man. Then she did it again intentionally and i fell for it again omg why am i so dumb T.T

Okay i'm gonna update again soon. I'm so tired! Hahaha. And you know what? My stomach just growled so cool! It sounded like a fart though. But its okay my stomach doesnt grow often. Haha! I'm not gonna eat, though heather dear says i'll get stomach ulcers, i'm just gonna live off my fats goodnight! :D

AND WONT IT BE SO COOL IF WE HAVE ALUMNI BAND IN SENTOSA!! :D

2009-04-14T21:53:00.004+08:00

These are the pictures we took on good friday :D Went to watch Shinjuku Incident with TP6. omg fun-ness. :D Well, and some other random pictures. Toodles! (:

2009-04-14T20:44:00.002+08:00

Loha world!
School is so evil tortured us like hell yesterday.
Had math mock exam, omg so crazy. Four and a half hour straight with just twenty mins break. T.T
And i posted so much just now and my internet connection got lost i have to retype. Sigh.

Anw I'm gonna go to bed early. Long day tmr.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO HEATHER DEAR IN ADVANCE! :D

2009-04-12T21:43:00.004+08:00

Hello blogaye.
Today is sunday. There is school tmr. omg my neck aches so bad right now.
Anw friday was no school day!
Went out with TP6 (upload pictures soon when i get 'em from Jolyn) :D And we went to watch the Shinjuku Incident. It's like my FIRST NC16 movie! haha so cool! And the only thing was like some pathetic sex scenes and Jackie Chan and Daniel Wu's whole butts naked. Haha. After that we went to City Harvest church at singapore Expo to watch some play. It was really nice but a little scary because we saw how Jesus was pinned to cross( idk how to spell cruxifide) and whipped and it was all bloody. But the songs were really nice and it was rather fun overall :D
haha and before that we were at suntec and there was this fourskin sale thing and i bought a pouch. Haha. After that i bought an anklet and handphone key chain-.- And the movie ticket was nine fifty. So i just threw money away lor. Kept buying things. Tsk. And i bought a purple tube dress top=.=
Anyway, we were on our way home and there was this auntie seated right infront of the standing area, all of us were standing ( me jolyn eunice jingyi and huimin) And naturally we were really rowdy and all. So this auntie was so agitated and she kept on shushing us (jingyi told me) and kept glaring at me. Omg it's like so what the hell. I looked at her and saw that she was listening to her 1992 discman( ok maybe it's a mp3 but she's bloody auntie with ugly hair and everything). So i thought, if you're listening to music how noisy could we be to you? Even the lao ah ma beside her wasnt very bothered with us, okay maybe her earing isnt good enough. But I was so disturbed so i kept studying her and GUESS WHAT. Her earpiece is just bloody one sided lor! No wonder la! Omg dear god please blame us for being too noisy for this dumb woman to listen to her music peacefully with just ONE EARPIECE. I bet she had a sour mood, like it's our fault for being too rowdy. Stupid auntie, life doesnt stop for us just because you're menopausing. Forgive us for being youthful. Well, maybe i would be that auntie in like thirty years down the road and a young bitch would be posting about me in her blog. Lol.

Saturday was so tiring! Had tuition in the morning and went to Aaron's house to study after that. I did my SS homework. And chatted a little. Haha Aaron made cheese omelettes so nice! Melted chesse mmmmm. Haha and his mum was so sweet she made chicken cutlet and fried rice for us to eat :D
then i went to mum's hotel and slept till this morning. omg the bed was damn bloody comfy can! but the pillow is the kind where you lay on it and it'll just completely sag and go flat. Now my neck is aching so bad. Woke up at bout 3 plus 4 today, and popo brought us out to lunch. :D
Ate bibimbab and i asked for beef and the stupid woman gave me chicken. Ah it was nice anyway. Then sister went to buy ling ao soup, omg drinking soup was bliss it's been so long since i've drank soup! Anw Popo's soup is nicer, it's not so saltish. Hahaha.
Came home today! And it's now 11.05. Hahah i better go finish up my DM. Procrastinating again. Haha.

I know you think i'm hopeless, i'm not. I just push the limits.

2009-04-08T13:09:00.004+08:00

You know what?
I realised that time flies. People change.
I did. At least i think I did. How i remember you being my most favourite person in the world, seeing you come online made me so bloody happy, talking to you for hours on end, neglecting my sleep just to stay awake to chat with you. And how when you went offline i would tell myself that there wasn't any purpose for me to continue staying online. And i would just go to bed immediately. Or how i would rush home just to come online.
How can someone so goddamn important to me, now become no more than a hi and bye friend? Why?
I take full responsibility. I guess as time passed, things happen. For so many reasons, many which were unreasonable and bitchy and wrong of me. I got jealous, upset, annoyed, agitated. I let all these sour emotions take over me and soon we gradually drifted apart. Well also thanks to a particular person, who bitched about you endlessly, complaining and cussing. I got affected. But now she can happily still be your friend. That fucking hypocrite. Anyway, I just want to say I'm sorry, that i let things turn out this way. Thinking back on how you'd fork out so much for me. How you showered me with care and concern. And even stayed up late to wish me happy birthday, call me in fact. Waited for me to come online, helped me with some of my work. Even to comfort me at most times, when i'm seriously blabbering nonsense but you took it in without complain. I pay for the consequence of being a bitch, where i lost the friend which i could talk to about REALLY everything in the world.

In life everyone makes mistakes. I did. You would in future. It just boils down to how much you really want to salvage the situation, and whether or not its too late.

And yes, time will tell.

2009-04-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

LOHA WORLD! :D
Wow it's been so long since i've said loha.
Life is so boring without band. No need to rush to band after lessons yesterday, because theres no band. No need to stay up late of friday, no band. Went to have sakae buffet on friday with clique, so cool! It was so fun spamming food. omg i was so full. Caught up ALOT. James came too! Just like the good old times :D Then we went back to sengkang area, brandon's house to play catching! Its been so long luh. To even run around the playground like idiots. It was so fun. Eating so much and burning it off later. Hahaha. Anw We played to really rather late, i think ten? I'm not sure. Yoongluck joined in too. We even played ouch obi obi. Yoongluck gave me a damn big bruise on my right thigh lor! Idiot, my bruises were getting better and he added a new one to my collection. Haha. Anw we took clique photo :D After so long. Its still with meng, i'll post it up soon. (:
Then Andra told me that she's bringing friends over to stay. So i brought mine too! :D So cool! First time ever! :D
Brought Xiaoting Dalston brandon and mengliang over. Haha i went home first with xiaoting, the rest went back to get ready. But after that her mum called and she had to go back ):
So the rest of us ate and watched movies, Resident Evil: Apocolypse and Davinci. Dalston and i lasted through Resident Evil! But the rest died and slept. After that it was the other way around haha.
Then you know what!? Xiaoting called! Haha cus she could come over already. And brandon left. So she called my handphone, and i wasnt wearing my specs so i ransacked my coffee table looking for my phone. And i finally found it! And i was about to hit the green button and Xiaoting hung up. =.= Then okay nevermind, i heard Dalston's phone ringing and i ran over to ransack the dining table. LOL. And when i FINALLY found Dalston's phone too, and about to hit THAT GREEN BUTTON, Xiaoting hung up again! Omg so crazy right hahaha. Okay so I heard meng's phone ring, so i ran to the coffee table and started searching for his phone. And i was so afraid that she would hang up lor! Then i was about to hit that green button again and SHE HUNG UP AGAIN!!! T.T omg. I felt like crying so bad. And everyone slept like dumb pigs. Dalston woke up and saw me running about and continued staring at me from the bed. Haha. Then the house phone rang. OMG i ran to the house phone AND SHE HUNG UP AGAIN!!!!
Walao this is such a long story right! hahaha. then she finally called my phone again and i ran back and SHE DIDNT HANG UP! omg i felt so happy lor! Like I finally gave birth to my kid or something. haha okay weird.
Then we continued sleeping and wasted the day away! Went online awhile while the rest slept. Then we went to CP for lunch. Hahaha was so tired i couldnt eat!

School is boring. omg what the hell its 12.30 am! I need to do CW!
Okay i'll blog again bye! =D

2009-04-05T21:50:00.002+08:00

5 Apr 09, 16:20
xuezhen: joan!! miss you man. haha. meet up soon
Yes I missed you so much too! :D

4 Apr 09, 11:08
dydyfloss: updateeeeee .
Updated :D

3 Apr 09, 14:58
Shermeen: And of cos Good luck for your 'O' level !
3 Apr 09, 14:57
Shermeen: I will miss you ! come back often , kays ? Dun be sad . Cheer up
(: I'll miss you too! I'll come back as often as possible, after O lvls I'll come back so damn often you guys will think i'm irritating! Haha I'm sad cus i'll miss you guys ): Thanks for the luck (:

2 Apr 09, 23:28
Denise: Hey Joan, promise me you'd come back as much as you can?! I can't bear to see you guys go luh! ): I haven't learnt everything about being a librarian leh! ): Come back okokokok?
OK! (: Just dont find me irritating. Hahaha. I dont want to step down either ): i'm not ready to step down ): I'll come back. Dont worry (: I'll pass on whatever i know. Haha (:

2 Apr 09, 20:21
shiya: must come back often worhx .. T_T
I'll come back i promise! :D

2 Apr 09, 19:38
ERNEST: Right, Give me a tag yea ?
2 Apr 09, 19:38
ERNEST: JOANCHUAWEIYING IM here to tag you. Haha, Syf is over, and we're stepping down from skyband. Kinda sad man.
Hello! Syf is over ): its not kinda sad its BLOODY SAD CAN! ): Tagged you! Hahha.

2 Apr 09, 18:44
Aaron: Thanks Joan. For always cheering me up. It all really seem like yesterday when we were all still together.
(: we will still be together! Its just not very in band, future (:

2 Apr 09, 16:58
huda: joan.i will miss you!
I'll miss you bloody hello lot too! (:

2 Apr 09, 16:47
EUNICE: And cheer up k! I'll miss you!
2 Apr 09, 16:46
EUNICE: Relink me! (:
I'll miss you too! dont forget me (: Thanks for lending me your shoulder when i cried. I really appreciate it. I'll relink asap! :D

2 Apr 09, 00:21
Vincent-: all you do is eat eat eat eat SLEEP
Go to hell man vin.

31 Mar 09, 21:21ERNEST:
Relinkrelink, http://t-ornbetween.blogspot.com
Again!?

31 Mar 09, 15:51yuxiang: ALL THE BEST FOR SYF GOGO
Thanks love! :D

2009-04-05T20:13:00.006+08:00

These are all the photos i could find ):
There are like 60% more! I swear i'll get them all out from my phone i'm so sorry ): I really wanted to post all of it. But my comp cant recognise them ):
I'll post again i swear! thank you band for all the wonderful memories that you've given me. Its the people that rock. I love Skyband! :D

I STEPPED DOWN FROM SKYBAND WITH A SILVER! :D

2009-03-30T22:25:00.003+08:00

OMG! SYF IS ON WEDNESDAY! TODAY IS MONDAY!
TIME FLIES! OMG OMG OMG OMG!
I'm not ready to step down. Why does time fly so fast.
Wouldn't be able to go back often. O lvl is priority. Well for now it's SYF.
Haha. Till wed that's all i can pull through!
omg so tiring. I've been going for BAND BAND BAND then Sectiobals on sat then family and friends outing during the weekend and last week and POOF! There goes all my time. Now i owe a whole truck load of homework and wthell am i doing still blogging! I'll blog more after syf okay i've got so many pictures waiting for me to upload! Tsk. Bye world!

GOOD LUCK BAND ALL THE BEST FOR SYF! :D

2009-03-26T22:25:00.002+08:00

Was a long and tiring day today.
Had boring lessons. Kept dozing off. Slept at two last night.
Oh my tian. Woke up at bout 6.40am and i nearly died in class.
Well, assembly was rather interesting today, two angmohs came to have some personality talks with us. I'm the youngest in the family which means i'm adaptable! :D Anw, it was rather fun although the couple kept talking about their kids.
Went to hougang with yoongluck after school (ate magnum first yum yum!) to get welfare stuff for Skyband's SYF. Omg we walked almost the whole area of shophouses in Hougang and we ate nothing but magnum. Nearly died on my way back. And we bought Gold ribbons! Decided that since we want Gold for SYF might as well get gold ribbons right! Hoho so innovative :D Then we went back to band room put the stuff and everything wthell man and some moron broke the mallet stick and i scotchtaped it back. was so fun spamming scotchtape! :D
Then went to have dinner with Meng and Dals. Wht the hell la i forgot to take my stuff i bought from watson's and now its rotting in the band room! tsk.

Okay i'm gonna go to bed right now. goodnight! :D

2009-03-26T01:42:00.001+08:00

Oh ya! And I had happy meal for dinner!

Got a new teddy bear! Purple one yay! :D
Haha okay i'm so lame. It's 1:43 am right now i better go to bed.
GOODNIGHT! :D

2009-03-25T23:15:00.003+08:00

I'M LOVING IT;

Its been a long week. Well, it's just wednesday. I slept at bout 2.30 - 3 on sunday night( well monday morning actually) to rush out coursework. I really dont know wherethehell my holidays went, anyway i was so tired i slept through the alarms and morning calls, and i woke up at 7.31am. WHAT THE HELL RIGHT. So ah fuck it i decided to stay at home. Told my mum and so i thought i could do my coursework, in peace, and maybe nap for like one hour plus cus i finished doing housework( washed all the pots, started the washing machine hang clothes, fold clothes, iron uniform, well practically what maids do) then dad came home. He started telling me off about bills. Scolding me about how messy the house was. I have to study, sister has school and mum works. We're not huang lian pos.

Anyway i got really annoyed so i went to Dalston's house to do my RND instead, so cool right! School reopened and all the suckers are in school mugging like fuck, while i'm outside! Hohoho. But it was a little disturbing cus i got up the bus in school uni(wore it for band prac) and everyone stared at me like :" wtfuck is this zhapor doing here shouldn't she be in school?! What a letdown *shakes head*" okay not so harsh actually. Omg i wasted so much time cus he was watching - I am Legend. And i got really distracted so i kept watching tv-.- haha but i finished one area of concern anyway! :D Had a short nap, slept for exactly one hour, then we left his house and went for BAND.

Yesterday was horrible i was late for school, popo morning called me like five times at six something and when i really needed to wake up she didnt call me anymore-.- woke up at seven but still late for school anw. Guess i bathed too long. Anw got hell for being late, mum and popo lectured me =.= couldnt even get my last two hours of sleep properly lor! Nb.
Anw i'm already late for school twice i can't afford to be late again T.T
Otherwise there goes my conduct grade. Tsk.
Was nearly late this morning too! But noooooo walked in at 7.30! Haha am i lucky or what!? :D
So i wasn't late for school anymore then yada yada. Went for boring lessons with weird kiddo old man teachers yelling :" Dont know, SHUT UP!" in a baby tone. (:

Had SS ssp test today. Bloody kuku i completed only two questions and i kept dozing off. I need to do something i think my brain's getting weird. :/

STRESS IS IN THE AIR;
Speaking of BAND, went for band on tuesday to teach the thirds. Anw it was announced that band would be open for practice. Well, all i can say is that i really expected more ppl too. Haha. Well, this sucks. Anw band today was really great! Stuck this cushion thingy to my mouth piece and i can control my tone better! Must be that vibration thingy. Tsk. Should've known earlier then i wouldn't have suffered so much. Haha Practiced in the hall today. Omg I should just die. Okay maybe not die, but i really had a hell lot of errors. Fuck man i'm gonna get nervous on SYF and get NB and just faint while seeing black and white stars hahaha.

Omg my main purpose to come online was to do my coursework.
Distractions are so annoying.
Haha goodnight world! Sweetest dreams.
Sleep tight and rest well. Tomorrow is a brand new day! :D

No action talk only. How i wish i could take a dead fish and slap it across your face.

2009-03-23T01:17:00.002+08:00

Anw, baked at bran's house last tuesday, here're the pics of my cupcakes :D
I baked for my family, my darling clique and my dearest TP6 :D
I dare say this is all my efforts, could've been better but i'll work on it. Made 'em with all my love (:

2009-03-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

omg it was super hard work to not laugh! It took so many tries! Hahaha i'm so guilty! :/ I'm not supposed to say ahahha. -.- whatever. But notice that aaron is smiling in almost all the pictures and he didnt even get scolded whatthehell man not fair! D: <

2009-03-22T23:49:00.003+08:00

Hello world! Today has been a very happy day, it was so much fun ( so much that much isn't even enough to comprehend) playing and chatting and eating and Meng's house (:
He's already seventeen, so old. I hope we stop aging we need to have fun!
Hahaha anw he's such a BIG NOOB because we surprised him so many times today! Three times to be exact! NO FOUR!
Went with bran to get Meng's present in the morning. I was so late sorry bran! Haha thanks for being so patient. (: Went to buy his crumpler and my new wallet! I love my new wallet i have a proper wallet finally. I hope this one lasts me long, like six months or more. Hahaha.
We ate and watched Leap Years in Meng's room and ate our king's FEAST
, which consists mainly beehoon( made with love by aaron's mum) and hotdogs (chopped from dalston!) honeyglazed chicken(caught by bran and I) Cakes ( ernest shat 'em out) and Cake bought by joshua, and Xiaoting! Who bought all the horrifying ingredients in our flour war! :D :D
Well, we had picture taking time and i kept laughing because we were supposed to take an angry and serious picture but i kept LOLing and giggling and it pissed everyone off! Haha i even made aaron pinch me, i regret it damn bad lor it's like, forming an orh ceh right now and there's a lump and it hurts ):
Haha well, the flour war was when we were all in the lift leaving meng's house to go home and all and dals ernest xiaoting and aaron and joshua went to get flour to throw at meng! omg i was hyperventilating in the lift cus i'm like using my sisters bag and i was so afraid it would get dirty:x
But it got dirty anw i had to wipe it and smack the flour out just now.
And it was so much damn fun running about like madness throwing flour everywhere and smashing everyone! omg it was so damn crazy! It was the best fun in my life lor!
Then we (me dals joshua and ernest) cabbed home first. The taxi uncle was really nice, we were a horrible mess and instead of going :" fuck you your're not getting into my cab!" he really drove us home. But we paid him la. It was like exactly ten dollars! So cool! So cheap saved us all the humiliation.
OH MY TIAN
I'm so hungry right now my food has all been digested i'm starving like fuck.

Pictures will be up soon! :D

I'm gonna start doing coursework it's due tuesday i really need to start. I suck so bet i bet i'm like queen of procrastinators man wtfuck bye goodnight! (:

2009-03-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO MENGABOON TAN MENG LIANG! :D

2009-03-20T02:07:00.003+08:00

My blog is so old. I've got about 410 posts altogether. Omg i realise i dont have history here. Hmm need to put it down later.
Anw today was really the best of the best! Hahaha Dalston Aaron and I went to watch Push, it was a little choppy and i didnt really understand the whole thing. But i really liked it a whole lot. We talked about everything under the sun (haha you dont fricking want to know WHAT) and ate carls junior for dinner. i dare say that i'm so full right now that it could last me till dinner tmr. Serious. I'm still so bloated an it's 2.10 am now and we ate at 8 plus. Oh my tian.
Well, Band exchange tmr. I've got cramps i hope i live it through.

I'm gonna post some pictures which i've been delaying for such a long long time! (:

2009-03-16T22:47:00.002+08:00

Woke up so early today to go to fnn ssp!
So bloody tired. Had to redo my overall planning cus its too brief wth man i'm so stupid.
Anw, went to band. My lips are like burning from all the playing. Oh man i'm so tired i'm gonna hit the sack.
Baking tmr! Mmmm mmm i'm gonna be doing cookies. I'll make it heart shaped (:

Goodnight to myself! I'm so tired. Hoho.
Goodnight world! Let the mooon shineeeeeeeeee. Lol.

2009-03-16T00:52:00.005+08:00

Yay! I managed to put songs into my MP4! I'm so happy hahahaha.
Anw I've got fnn lessons tmr I'm so tired i gtg goodnight world!
Heather's morning calling me at 7.45 so early and it's like 12.53 am now omg man i'm gonna go sleep! :D

2009-03-14T23:45:00.002+08:00

Hello world!
Day out today with Dalston Xiaoting and Mengaboon to picnic by the beach, but ended up it was going to rain ( And dals and I got lazy at his waiting for the rest :x ) so we ended up watching movies and eating in his room tele to and rotted and got fatter!
It was so damn damn damn fun man! We chatted a whole deal, watched The Mummy Returns: CHINA EMPEROR(somewhere around that) and we started eating and laid down to watch the movie and sat up again to chat! So much fun! We've not had such bonding session for such a long time I'm so happy (:
I wanna watch movie and eat fried rice and hotdogs and crackers and tuna and xiaoting's chinese birthday eggs and drink the orange fnn again!
haha anw today is xiaoting's chinese birthday. Tmr is Mengliang's! So weird right! Their birthday dates are like 12 days apart, and their chinese birthdays are directly beside each other. No wonder we're following the english calendar. Lol.
Then after movies supposed to rush over to Popo's house to visit. Came home instead. I can't wait for lunch with popo and kong kong soon! (:

Was talking on the phone with my popo just now and i cried because i missed her so much and i really felt guilty for dilly dally-ing instead of leaving earlier to go over. I cried and i kept repeating i love you to popo.
AND TAN MENGLIANG was being his usual bastardy ways and he was so rude and said why i kept saying i love you, saying that i didnt mean it and that my love is free! So motherfucker right! haha. My love is free and unlimited for my family(: Of course la i love them so much! tan meng liang if you tio pa one day i'm gonna laugh i tell you! Haha kidding la! :D

AND TO JIEJIE! TAKE CARE IN SELANGOR WHATEVER THAT PLACE IS I MISS YOU ALREADY! I CANT SLEEP WITHOUT YOUR SNORING AND SLEEP TALKS! SEE YOU ON MONDAY I LOVE YOU ^^ + <3

2009-03-14T10:14:00.003+08:00

I'm sorry, I'm so bloody bored with this blog skin that i'm gonna change it right now.
Mummy bought me a MP4! How cool is that! I have like, god knows how many underlines ( okay six) and mummy bought something, a surprise she said, to motivate and brainwash me. (:
Omg i love mum so much. Dad would never have allowed, but who cares when he isn't here anymore? :/

Anw she gave it to me and said that i must study hard and get very good O lvls result and told me long long stories. I'm glad she did. It really makes me wanna study harder and not let her down. I'll do my best! Serious. But i think i need someone to consistently slap me in the face and scream:" Wake up motherfucker! Stop slacking and wasting life away and start studying hard for your O lvls!" Huh. Omg that'll be painful.

but fuck it, it doesnt seem to be able to connect to the comp lo lol. Ah heck i'll tray again tonight. Gotta go for chem prac! And off to Dalseetons house to make Sandwiches for Picnic later! Yum yum! Seeya world! :D

2009-03-12T15:00:00.000+08:00

& A VERY HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO XIAOTING DARLING!
YOU'RE SIXTEEN!!! I LOVE YOU (;

2009-03-12T14:58:00.001+08:00

You know what?
I'm gonna post up the photos and updates later on Saturday!
Coursework is much more important byeee!!! (:

2009-03-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

You said all you wanted was ice cream, he gave it to you with a cherry on top, but you pushed it away instead.

School today was stupid. Lessons were PE and mt and e math. Mr teoh was absent, so it's only left with MT, had a long long chatting session with heather dear during PE! :D MT was so tiring, it's the first time i'm putting in effort for the paper. I hope i pass well (: cus I kind of understand the passage. I think. Lol. I skipped chinese SSP. I hate chinese ssp. I hate staying back for SSPs.
Well, Band was tiring. That's all.
I wanna go out tmr. I want to get a new purse. Must wait for my money first.

Yuxiang! I need my candyfloss bottle right now ):

Sometimes I really wonder why i try my best to pick you up, when all you can do is push me down and take my all away.

2009-03-05T22:33:00.001+08:00

Don't strew me with roses after I'm dead.

When Death claims the light of my brow,

No flowers of life will cheer me: instead,

You may give me my roses now!

2009-03-05T21:36:00.003+08:00

If you think your life is harsh, think again. If you think life is being unfair, think again. Before you open that gaping hole in your face to bitch and complain, THINK AGAIN. Look at all these people? They didnt even have a chance or choice to live the life of luxury we're leading, didnt even have a chance to go through fun joy and laughter we're going through right now. Who are we to complain? Be satisfied with your lot. Because, life is never fair. And, it certainly wasnt fair to them.

well, Aaron brought up the Hitler topic, and it lead to some Holocaust and i kept reading and linking and reading on and on.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Holocaust_victims
Well, read on. Find out about history. And you'd just realise that life, is bliss right now.

I'm gonna go off soon. I'm so tired i could sleep for ages, maybe forever.
And quarantine was horrifying! went to dals house to watch just now. Omfg man so gore and traumatizing. But the funny part was when the camera man bashed the infected zombie rabes-ed bitch with his camera! Haha it was hilarious but i couldnt watch. Couldnt bear the see the bones get smashed lol. Omg i think it was rather nice. But if i were to be in that situation, i would've killed myself ages ago and not allow myself to die last. Lol. Sucks to die last lor! I would kill myself in the nicest way possible. Instead of getting chewed or eaten to death like a piece of chicken chop. Okay this is getting sick. And i like, have chicken to eat for dinner later and wtf i'm losing my appetite man.

Goodnight world! The post for today ends here. (:

Oh and we (TP6 and YunZhen) celebrated Tan LiZhen's birthday today! haha was sp much fun i acted out the role of the chef, who created weird foods like chicken balls and fake sandwiches? Hahaha, hope you enjoyed your birthday Lizhen! (:

HERE'S A :
HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY TO YOU TAN LI ZHEN!!! :D

2009-03-04T22:55:00.004+08:00

I wish i had someone to hear me out too.

Lessons are getting tiring. Cooked bacon sandwiches for breakfast today to give me energy. It worked! Until one period before recess. hahaha. Anw Band today was really tiring. Sharpened so many pencils, my fingers turned black cus of the pencil lead i think. It hurt from trying to turn that lousy small stick thing. Had sectionals, worked my best. Went into band room and i sounded weird again and couldn't Fp anymore. I wonder why i sound different as compared to sectionals. anw, i'm so tired right now. Had dinner with clique after band and chatted a whole lot after dinner.
It was really sad. Made me miss Ah Gong so much. I've not seen him for 7 years, and it's gonna go on till i die.
I miss the jin tao lor ti and sweets he used to buy me. I miss him fetching me from preschool. I think it sucks that i didnt have a chance to treasure him while i could. I was only nine, and all i could do was cry lamely when Mum told me he died. How nice of me.
School tmr, F&N ssp. I want to watch movies at dals's house. I'm tired. Hope it doesnt end late. It's now 11.06pm.
I guess i gtg. I'm gonna blog soon. Hopefully like sat or friday. Goodnight world! Treasure all you got. You only live once, dont die with regrets.
I wish i had a chance. Oh fuck it. Goodnight (:

Anw isn't it so cool to get married and have kids in your dream home with a dream wedding?
The best part is cooking his favourite food for dinner, and waiting for him to come home. (:

I really do try and wait for the feeling to pass.
But sometimes it just doesn't go, it hangs on to me so bad that i wallow.

2009-03-01T13:33:00.002+08:00

I wish i have a friend like me ):

I'm so happy right now. Cus i know something you all dont! Hahaha.
I love myshell. =D
Gtg, i miss you ):

I'll be back tonight to put in the lyrics! enjoy, it's really a nice song. Heard this last night during NYP alumni concert.

And the world will live as one.

2009-03-01T13:10:00.000+08:00

Slow Dance

This is a poem
written by a teenager with cancer.

She wants to see how many
people get her poem.

It is quite the poem. Please pass it on.

This
poem was written by a terminally ill young girl in a
New York
Hospital .

It was sent by a medical doctor - Make sure to read what is in the closing statement
AFTER THE POEM..

SLOW DANCE

Have you ever watched kids
On a merry-go-round?
Or listened to the rain
Slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight?
Or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Do you run through each day
On the fly?
When you ask How are you?
Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done
Do you lie in your bed
With the next hundred chores
Running through your head?

You'd better slow down
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

Ever told your child,
We'll do it tomorrow?
And in your haste,
Not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch,
Let a good friendship die
Cause you never had time
To call and say,'Hi'

You'd better slow down.
Don't dance so fast.
Time is short.
The music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere
You miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry
through your day,
It is like an unopened gift....
Thrown away.

Life is not a race.
Do take it slower
Hear the music
Before the song is over.

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2009-02-28T13:36:00.000+08:00

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go

Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful,
Waiting for me to come home, to come home.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

2009-02-28T13:22:00.000+08:00

Weak
I have been crying and crying for weeks
How'd I survive when I can barely speak
Barely eat, On my knees

But that's the moment you came to me
You don't know what your love has done to me
Think I'm invincible
I see though the me I used to be

You changed my whole life
Don't know what your doing to me with your love
I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

Strong
Since I've been flying and writing the wrongs
Feels almost like I've had it all along
I can see tomorrow

Well every problem is gone because
I flew everywhere with love inside of me
It's unbelievable to see how love can set me free

You changed my whole life (life)
Don't know what your doing to me with your love (uh-huh)
I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human (I feel so superhuman X2)
Super human

It's not a bird, not a plane
It's my heart and it's going, gone away
My only weakness is you
Only reason is you
Every minute with you
I can feel like I can do anything
I'm Going going, gone away love

You changed my whole life (oh uh)
Don't know what your doing to me with your love (to me with your love)
I'm feeling all super human, you did this to me, yeah
A super human heart beats in me
Nothing can stop me here with you
Super human

2009-02-28T12:08:00.001+08:00

I hope you hang yourself with your H&M scarf
While jacking off listening to mozart
You bitch and moan about LA
Wishing you were in the rain reading Hemingway
You don't eat meat
And drive electrical cars
You're so indie rock it's almost an art
You need SPF 45 just to stay alive

(CHORUS)
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like boys
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like...

You're so sad maybe you should buy a happy meal
You're so skinny you should really Super Size the deal
Secretly you're so amused
That nobody understands you
I'm so mean cause I cannot get you outta your head
I'm so angry cause you'd rather MySpace instead
I can't believe I fell in love with someone that wears more makeup than me..

(CHORUS)
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like boys
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like...

(BRIDGE)
You walk around like you're oh so debonair
You pull em' down and there's really nothing there
I wish you would just be real with me

(CHORUS)
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like boys
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
Oh no no no no no no-------
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like boys
You're so gay and you don't even like boys
No you don't even like
No you don't even like
No you don't even like... PENIS

2009-02-28T10:46:00.005+08:00

Today is the last day of feb, that leaves me bout seven to eight months to study for Os. bout ten more days to xt's birtday, and 22 to mengs.
wow. I really need to save up soon. Cashflow is really tight right now.

Big hugs to Xiaoting & Dalston for being there. Thanks (:

I failed english and maths. Careless mistakes kills.

2009-02-27T23:35:00.004+08:00

I need a hug.
If only i could tell you how i feel.
But i will keep it in.
I wonder why i keep caring.
I wonder what i can do to turn time back.
I wonder why i made so much effort when all i get in return is ; nothing.
Friends are nothing, when you dont even have a whole family.
Friends are never true.
No matter how i true i wanted * to be, no. It never happens.
I just feel so numb right now.
I've cried till i have no more tears.
I really want this family back in whole, why must time fly?

2009-02-24T19:35:00.002+08:00

Well, I did the personality thingy on Yuxiang's blog. :D
Its more or less how i feel. Maybe i should do this more often to keep track of myself psychologically. Lol. Ok i gtg bye! :D

You are very demanding - and insisting on total involvement but you do not reciprocate with the same depth of feeling. However, it could well be that maybe an unprecedented surprise is awaiting you in the near future. For just as one whilst paddling in the sea, could flounder into a whirlpool, so you may be drawn into a loving situation that has high emotional demands - and you could well respond with a depth of emotion that you never even dreamed that you possessed.

Your mind is never at rest.You are continually striving to influence all those about you. You have some excellent ideas but you persist in trying to persuade others just how great your ideas really are. Maybe you are trying too hard. Take it easy - remember, 'Everything comes to those who wait'.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

2009-02-24T18:27:00.004+08:00

Oh and too jingyi too, yes thank you (: I've cheered up love ;D

Anw! I'm soooooo gonna not get good results for this CT lor. Yeah i know you've heard this four times for four years but wth! I seriously did study this year!!!! But i didnt memorise properly my elements thing for chem, and i screwed up my chemical equation! Just by the stupid positive and negative charges! Even if my ionic did well for shit. T.T Anw i wronged quite alot. I'm gonna get lousy grades. Miss Rina is gonna eat me up. Haha that Boa song. Anw, I finished the whole emath paper! Surprising right! Edwin Wong set one leh! Well, getting it done is one thing, I might not have gotten them right :/
Bio was so idiotic lor, i studied like hell and not much of respiration came out. Lol. Was really quite easy, but i missed out on alot of keywords at section C-.- English!! Dont say already. I made so many mistakes that i'm so ashamed myself. Wth who in the right mind would give a weird comprehension on shaolin kungfu monks!? Got me so confused! I didnt even check la wth dozed off the minute i completed it. omg time is such a precious thing. Luckily this is just common test. I still have mid year to buck up on. Omg. I'm so afraid of O lvls.

Hate this la. fucking silly mistakes can just easily take away all my chances of passing. omg. I guess i tried my best. ):

Going for band yesterday was the most idiotic and disgusting thing i've done this year. I didnt even have sufficient time to study and revise and I went for band!! wtf. I went late, did some math revision with xiaoting mengliang and heather, with georgina popping by. Haha. Well, went up at bout four plus five, expected that we could have full band and then i could go home. But NOOOOOOOOOO. The attendance was fricking one third that of sunday's. ONLY LIKE 19 PPL WENT LOR!!! Then just sectionals all the way waste my time! Forty over smart asses went home to study anw, even Mr Lun himself couldnt understand why we had to have band prac on monday. omg, wasted two hours ytd. Not like i would've studied during the two hours, but i couldve slept or something. Then i wouldnt have felt so lethargic at night that i go t so lazy, i flipped through, watched desperate housewives and went to bed. omg. So idiotic right. Haha. Dont know what got into me to be so stupid and dumb to even go band. well, the surprising thing was that Yoongluck went for band. LIM YOONG LUCK. he was like, the first person on my list to skip band on a common test day. Wow. Bravo. Anw, attendance was so horrible i wished that i was among the horrible ones hahaha.

Ah I'm so tired. I'm gonna go nap, then wake up and study SS. anw i have free period tmr to study it, I dont have A MATH! :D
Goodnight world! (:

2009-02-24T17:08:00.003+08:00

22 Feb 09, 20:00
e.t.: btw i've seen katy perry life in person
22 Feb 09, 19:59
e.t.: long long long post.... dun emo girl... cheer up....

JOAN: hey I'm not emo okay! It's okay to be sad once in a while. Its healthy! Haha. Omg where did you see her?? (:

22 Feb 09, 11:21
choonkun: yo! dont sad le la! everything will be alright de! if u need help, i will be there for u de! for studies wise..u can come find me or jing yi de! we will be there for u!cheer up!:D smile alright?

JOAN: YO! Lol. Yeap I'm feeling very much better now saw daddy today ^^ Haha Yes thank you for your concern and support (: Haha you say wan ah if i pester you you better dont run away okay. Smiling now! :D

21 Feb 09, 14:48
dydyfloss: there's me too, so please don't be sad anymore. Please, tell me if there is anything I can do.
21 Feb 09, 14:47
dydyfloss: Even if they separate... please don't be sad because you'll make it through somehow. you've got great friends and i'm sure they'll be more than happy to stay with you through thick and thin. and
21 Feb 09, 14:46
dydyfloss: Please don't be sad. I'm sure there must be something... you can do. Why don't you tell your parents how much you love them? or.. even just get them to read your blog. I'm sure they'll be touched=/
21 Feb 09, 10:38

JOAN: Haha its no use. It's okay (: I'm feeling better now. I will still get to see dad occasionally. Yes i'll make it through! I have you, my clique, my band and i have heather dear and asmmm to be noisy with! (: Of course I'll survive.
I will not be dumb and give up my life just like that. I wont make you cry! Haha. Yes you can help me by, CHEERING UP TOO! Rmb our bottle promise and dont keep everything yourself okay? I may have my own problems but i'd like to share yours too (:

Dalston: and he stubbornly refuses to go out doors till he has done his daily routine.
21 Feb 09, 10:37
Dalston: he's such a perfectionist that he divides his bush of hair into two. and then counts each side to make sure that they are perfectly symmetrical.
21 Feb 09, 10:35Dalston: and dun fcuking care about that stupid perfectionist who goes around correcting people's mistake.
21 Feb 09, 10:35Dalston: woah, relax joan. dun get too sad alright? things will work out eventually. dun worry too much alright?

JOAN : Yes i've cheered up a whole lot (: I wont worry i hope. Haha that's one big MOFU right there who dare to correct my friends in my blog. Hey he might have a huge bush. And by the time he's ready to leave the house he can go to bed. =.=

2009-02-21T03:14:00.002+08:00

I think that was like the longest post in my whole blogging history. Omg and i cried.
Anw, just felt like posting a picture of me and Xiaoting, we've known each other for 7 years. Wow. It's such a huge number. And i'm proud of it. Actually luckily a friend switched schools, otherwise we'll still be like some childish enemies or something lor. Because of the departure of one of our best friend it got us both together and we stayed strong, and here with are seven years later, Besties.
I love Xiaoting! I cant wait to go to your wedding! Haha. If Gerald ever does anything to break your heart, He's gonna go through MY version of 18 lvls of hell. Mince his dick man. hoho.

Ok it's like gonna be 3.30am now i'm tired goodnight! ^^

2009-02-20T23:23:00.004+08:00

I just want to lie on your shoulder again.

It's been a long dreadful week,
I wish i could start this post happy. I really do. But no. I dont feel happy.
I feel weird. In a sense, i can't explain. Just. really.
Anw, Life revolved around education and routines and. BAND.
Waking up bright and early to attend school, Monday was great, missed everyone so much (: Well, study study study. I'm not gonna say it sucks. It doesnt. It's just. i guess i'm used to it. Getting a lil more hardworking now. Isn't it too late? After like fricking ten years of education and when you're finally at the last year taking the most important paper in your whole damned life you're finally hardworking!? Anw. Life after lessons are band. And studies. hmwk revision etc. Staying up late to finish hmwk, waking up early to go to school. A lil hell and heaven, heaven cus of the ppl and hell for the work to do.

It's nice to feel appreciated. It's nice to have someone there for you to confide in although you cant tell it to the one you want to tell. Thank you Aaron Wong Ah Lian for answering so many of my dumb questions which really made me feel insecure hahahaha (:

Have you ever wondered what a difference you can make?
The Librarian in my school Miss Kong had her house burned down. It's the saddest news i've heard in my whole year. (lol just two months) But, it's bad enough your'e an old spinster. It's worse now that your house got burnt down. And not like you've got a fantastic job at a cheerful school with nice kids smiling and saying hi all the time. What could be worse than getting your house burned down! Your memories, your home. The only place you feel safe in the entire world. It's all gone. Burned to ashes. You can never go home and sit in the soft cushioned homey sofa that you onced dozed off on, never step into the same kitchen to cook your favourite food. Never sleep in the warm wooley bed you're used to sleeping every night. No. Everything is gone, while working like hell, to earn the money to maintain the house which was already burning, burned. What could be more catastrophic?

Ask yourself, in life, have you really given a helping hand? Have you even helped someone you dont know, much less someone you dont like? Have you ever considered or even DONE charity? Miss Kong has been serving our school for ages, during times when you're in primary dont know what. She slogged her guts out for the darned small ugly deprived facilities library, did the best she could to get the books we wanted and would enjoy reading, that we would love, and all you could spare and donate to help her pick up on what's left of her life is a few miserable TEN CENTS. Yes, it's true that you're not working. It's true that our parents too have to slog their guts out just to earn money. But have you wondered? Without her service, would you be happily reading or borrowing the story book/novel/comic that's lying in your bag right now? Do you really think that the books magically appeared in the library system and shelves? How sad. What if you're in the same position? I bet if you saw the measly amount everyone donated, you'd freaking think there's no future. With no fire insurance, she's lost everything. Do you even think that your mediocre amount of money can make a big difference compared to the rest? No. I dont think so. How selfish to save up your money to buy crap, instead of donating a lil more of it to someone in a sad situation. If you were in the same plight. You would cry. No, you'd just jump off the lift landing when you step out ot the lift to see your whole house and corridor black, ashed. Just when you can make a difference in someone's life, you choose to laugh it off and close both eyes, instead of extending both hands to reach out. You're not cold blooded. You're just, beyond comprehension. And that's the worst thing you could ever get.

And just in case anyone is wondering how much i donated, $2. Yes, it's not alot, but more than your measly 50 cents which could maybe pay half her bus fare. If you hookers think that it's her just desserts for being so mean, well, go ahead. Just remember that it could've been you, think of all your beloved possesions burned to ashes.

Band has been taking up alot of my time. But i'm proud to say that i took the initiative to learn chemistry and emath ( which i missed out on because of my stomach flu, one whole week gone.) from Brandon Yeo, thanks so much for the patience and effort in teaching me! (: He rewarded me with traditional ice cream today because i continued doing my work without him having to push me in his absence (: Thank you so much. It really makes me want to study and do well. And not let mum and sister dissapointed anymore, by seeing my lousy grades in my report book and having to be optimistic and say that i'm really trying my best.

I was never trying my best. Never for math. I just procrastinated till the day where i would just rush revision and sit for the test and fail anyway. Why did i do that? Why does everyone do that? Why cant i just sit down and pay attention and do my work? I think it could have jeopardized the only hope my parents used to feel when they were praying hard holding on to the false hope thinking that i would finally pass my math. Thinking back, it was really unneccesary, all the nonsense i've been putting up. All i have to do is just to listen and obey. I've not heard the word obedience for a long long time. I guess, i'll have to start instilling that into me. Otherwise i'm getting nowhere with an attitude that's not gonna bring me far. It's too late now.

When i could've made i difference, i didnt give two hoots about anything. Didnt attempt to save my breaking family. When you'd think it would get better soon because it's just a quarrel. But no, things get to complicated and before you know it, they're divorcing. The life the love the parents, splitting up. Now i wonder why i've been studying so hard, i wanted to study hard and earn alot of money and buy a big big house, enough for three/four generations. In there, there would be master bed rooms for mum and dad, sis and her hubby, and me and my hubby. then I could have a big nursery for sister's kids and my kids to play in, a big living room with a movie theatre dolby surround system where we could bond and spend time together, a little swimming pool in the back yard, with maids to takecare of the house. That was my initial goal, a happy family and a happy life. And Mum and Dad would be happy old people with white hair, cradling and cooeing at their grandchildren, with slit eyes and wrinkles, contented. And i would have a room just especially for Dad, so he can have his playstation with his car steering wheel and gears, accelerators everything, a huge plasma tv, movies for him to watch. And lots of money for Mum to spend on shopping and spa. I would really want them to enjoy life. And my wedding would be the best thing ever, with them looking at their daughter with happy faces like :" i raised my daughter well" " look at how pretty she is in the wedding gown" and dad would be thinking :" that boy had better take care of my daughter and not break her heart" and Popo and Kongkong and Ahma would be really old ppl with white hair, sitting at the VIP table smiling. And my husband would be a caring man and not bully my parents and love them like I do. Mum and Dad would live happily together and go on happy cruises and come back to play with their grandchildren all day long, just like how Popo and Kongkong took care of us. But no, life is never smooth. All this is imaginary future i planned is something which will never happen. Mum and Dad would never hold hands again. I would never get to see them in the same house, laughing and singing together. They wouldn't eat breakfast and prepare dinner together anymore. What's the meaning in living on and growing up without a happy harmonious family? It's all too late. When I've never appreciated. I took things for granted. Everything is lost. The home i look forward into coming back is not an empty shell, just not everything it used to be. Bright vibrant, homey and warm. How I envy everyone else during chinese new year, :" no i cant stay out late today i've gotta go home to eat reunion dinner with my family" Or mum and dad will get angry if i dont go home now". For me, it's no more Mum and Dad. Just, Mum. And then Dad. Without Dad, life isnt the same. There's no one to speak chinese with me, no one to teach me chinese( how i regret dreading when dad always wanted to teach me new idioms ); ) and when dad would ask me to go wash his car with him, or help to housework. Or when he would fight with me to play the computer, or asking me to play soccer with him on the playstation and i would take france. And we would take a long time to choose the soccer uniforms. Or when how i would always break or spoil things, and dad would go through the hassle to fix it for us, for long hours even though his shift work is killing him. How i wish i'm still in primary school. Where daddy would send me to school, and fetch me home after that. And i would be all excited and complain and rant on and on about how fun/happy/sad/frustrating school was. He always carried my backpack, even when i met him on the way home. That's just how daddy is, always caring about my welfare. How i miss all this right now. But it's always too late. I'm tired of always putting up a brave front and be seemed to be interested in things which i really dont care about. Acting like my domestic issues doesnt bother me at all. It does. It really does. It's just that i cant go around planting my sadness and misery onto your happy faces. Staying strong may sound easy. But it's just so hard to look and hear about everyone's family being happy and sweet and keep a straight face when it hurts because i dont have the luck of it all.
How i really really want this family to not break up. I'd give up my future husband if i have to. I'd willing to die a spinster. This family is my all. And now it not being in one lovely piece, its just unacceptable.

Time is like an accident which can never be reversed.

2009-02-15T01:14:00.001+08:00

(V1)
Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

(PRE)
You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

(V2)
You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

(PRE)
He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

(BRIDGE)
You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

(CHORUS)
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your...

Your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door and
Take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay

2009-02-14T23:20:00.004+08:00

Well, day out with dalston brandon an Aaron all the (N ppl including me!) haha, to celebrate valentines. Went to Sentosa beach, to fool around and relax. WAS FUN! esp the 30x7 oscar sculpting part. Lollllll. Sorry for making you guys wait! I didnt know that the bus would take such a long time haha. The water felt great! Sand felt great! So relaxing. Although a little hesitant but it wasn't a wasted trip. Thank you Aaron, for insisting stubbornly that we go. Glad that i had a chance to sit by the beach to think things over (:

Cus you can't jump the track
We're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boy,
So cradle your head in your hand.
And breathe...

2009-02-14T01:43:00.001+08:00

That's soyabean! didn't manage to capture her health happiness and hygiene, but i'm glad to say it's all full! (: Sorry Soyabean, sorry so much for neglecting you. And dont laugh at my poorness! 213 coins isn't very little. But thats cus i bought a new armchair and cushion for Soyabean, also the new teddy right beside her. ^^

Goodnight Soyabean, sleep well ^^

2009-02-14T01:03:00.003+08:00

THANK YOU KONGKONG & POPO, FOR TAKING CARE OF ME! XOXO (;

JIEJIE! GET WELL SOON! I DIDNT MEAN TO PASS THE VIRUS TO YOU! SORRY PIG! (:

2009-02-13T22:42:00.006+08:00

Hello everyone!
You wanna know where i am? I'm in bukit batok!
hoho. I bet the world has been upside down for you in the past four days because i'm not around right? No worries! I'll be back in school on monday! Life will be better then ^^

Anw, i got sick with stomach flu, (It turned out to be stomach flu, cus my sis caught it [sorry! ):] and she consulted the same doctor as me later in the day and doctor confirmed it as stomachflu, not food poisoning -_-) Well, sorry to those that i said i had food poisoning cus i tot i had it, since i drank expired milk. Milk is evil! Haha. Anw it's not my fault cause the doctor didnt tell me what i got. i didnt have energy to ask anw. Haha.
Woke up on tuesday morning 2am to be exact, and had horrible diarrhoea. But i tot wth! So early wasted my time on the holy seat and i went back to sleep. I really wanted to go to school cus i missed two days worth of knowledge last week. But Oh no. God forbid. And i woke up again at FOUR AM, (wow so nice of god to give me two hours of rest before i had to go all down on me knees puking 16 years of life outta me!) and i went to vomit my guts out. Went back to sleep again, no with plastic bag in hand, just in case i puke on Andra. But nooooo. No such luck. Woke up again at 6.05am and I ************** . ( well, i'm gonna spare you the gory details.)
Nooooooo. From 10 feb till today, life has NOT been fair to me. Hey 10 feb! GOH CHOON KUN HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY! I HOPE YOU SEE THIS! YOUR HOLY BIRTHDAY TOOK HALF MY LIFE AWAY MAN!!! I even put this in blue for you! Humph.
Anw, my dearest PO PO AND KONGKONG, thank you so much for being there for me when i'm really bloody sick twice!

Haha anw, they went to the polyclinic before fetching me, whew, spared me the torture of waiting time, and kongkong drove us to the polyclinic. Anw did i mention how unwell i felt!? I couldnt fucking stand for ten seconds! yes it was that bad. not the usual healthy bubbly kind(haha) me! And PoPo had to drag me this overweight granddaughter all the way in. She didnt even complain and even told me to give her my bag. THANKS SO MUCH! XOXO :D
Then i had to go to the immediate emergency room thing directly at the waiting area, so cool! I've never gone there before! And the person told me to lie down. So cool lie down! Got clean sanitory paper somemore^^ and i lied there while she took my blood pressure and temperature blahblah. Kong kong went to park the car and waited for me outside.
Well, verdict was, i got dehydration after all the diarrhea and vomiting, and to top it off i already have low blood pressure(that's so weird i've been eating so much o.o) and this made me giddy and hence i couldn't walk or breathe properly. WTF! And i dont know the cause of all these. i guess stress, and i've not been taking care of myself.

ZHENG XIAO TING LA! Only know how to sayang her Gerald never sayang me. T.T

Anw, i've been recuperating here in bukit batok. Since tuesday. not been to school for so long! and today is already friday. no saturday. lol. anw i'm feeling better. wonder if popo will let me go out. actually i went home on wed. took a cab. wasted money! cus i woke up on thurs having diarrhea and vomit and popo and kongkong had to fetch me back and sent me to doctors again. So back here i am. virus loves me too much to let go. tsk.

Well, i'm going off. stop blogging. I've got so much on my mind now. tsk.

2009-02-07T01:45:00.003+08:00

2009-02-06T23:48:00.003+08:00

Loha!
omg it's been more than ten days since i last blogged, sorry bloggaye for leaving you stagnant and uninteresting. Sorry that i've been neglecting you for twilight and school and sick mc days and BAND and outings and shopping and reunion dinner and new year visiting hohoho. okay i'm supposed to sound sad and apologetic and sincere. Oh what the fuck why am i apologising to a virtual thing!? Ah anw, I've been so obsessed with twilight that i've bought like breaking dawn and eclipse, with bout $10 sponser from vincent. Who's supposed to get me the whole book but later decided not to extort so much from him so i just claimed ten dollars! Lol. Thanks bong! (:
Anw, I'm really rather tired now, although i promised that everytime i dont blog for a long time i will make up with a fucking long post, no no i dont mean i'm gonna stop right now. I'll just keep talking and yakking on and on till i really really feel like leaving. Hoho.

Band practice was rather boring(it's not been very fun for a long long time) with Eugene CHUA abandoned me for his stupid streaming talk presentation thingy! Stupid prefect shits.
Had dinner with clique and lihua and lam, so fun! So much catching up and tried to learn how to tie french braids! ahaha. Failed though. Xiaoting kept moving and i didnt feel like tying anymore. Lol.

AND CHINESE HUA WEN IS SO ANNOYING!
Anw I'm sure i'm gonna get like, full marks for my chinese spelling and zao ju cus it wasn't my own effort at all, 100% help from the ting xie paper. i hate chinese ssps and such. they are so annoying. Chinese itself is annoying! I'm not trying to criticize my own race or whatever, not hating it because my chinese is weak. But what the hell!? The chinese characters are all weird and squiggly with more than 40% of the passage consisting of chinese characters that i swear i've never seen before( otherwise i did see them before but i dont rmb their meaning or pronounciation or what the fuck cant even see the strokes) and it's so idiotic because if i just miss a few words i cant even understand the whole passage at all!! This makes me so mad because english is so much easier and i dont see why chinese has to be so complicated because, like they always say, read the side characters in the word or something but what the hell how do i do that when it's all so confusing and complicated and i dont even know the meaning! Unlike english, so simple and easy just 26 alphabets making up so many words, dont know the meaning of the word, look up the dictionary. It's POSSIBLE to find it in the dict. CHINESE! Dont even know what it sounds like and the han yu pin yin how the hell to look up in the dictionary!!?? oh my tian so idiotic. Ok enough about chinese. Later those higher mother tongue ppl spam me because of this calling me a bimbo and a disgrace to my own race. wtf ._.

Lessons are starting to get boring. I'm losing interest in studying. Wth. And i realise that i hate air con now even more. I'm even sleeping without air con at home! After the doctor diagnosed me with viral infection( Wtf i fucking waited for like 2 and a half hours to get my medicine and all in the polyclinic so idiotic and inefficient the polyclinics!) Well, viral infection. Means virus la. Couldn't the doctor be a little more specific and tell me what virus i have!? Like it's virus i've got flu and sore throat and cough and fever but it's virus! Dont even know what fucking disease or bacteria i have in my body. just virus. "harmless virus" oh what the hell if it's harmless i wont be sitting in front of him consulting him right. Anw the air con in class is making me have bad headaches and the air is so musty and it smells weird ._.
why am i so full of cpmplains? ._.
Wow i didnt exactly realise that i've got so much rants in me.

Well, anw had reunion dinner with clique, was so fun and family! Fought with xiaoting cus she kept singing ugly songs and all. had to shut her up so i went to grab ice and tried to stuff it down her bra! Well we pushed and slapped and i landed on the floor so many times! painfulll. haha And we gambled too! i think i won like 5++ only. overall more of mengs and aarons money at meng's house, like $10++! So cool!. and we played really small so it's not bad! Hahaha.

Photo's coming up! can't keep updating so i'mma just let the pictures do the talking ;D

2009-01-26T15:31:00.003+08:00

LOHA TO THE WHOLE WORLD!
Happy china ox year! :D
And thankyou to all those who wished me happy lunar new year! (: was too busy last night didnt wish any of you back. Here's a big HAPPY CNY to all of you loves! (;

It's been such a long long time since i've last blogged. i think it's more than a week? Haha. I dont have a very good reason, sorry but i'm just plain lazy :/
Well, anw went to watch Bride Wars last night with mum and sister to celebrate reunion dinner together, and ate pizza hut. Pictures up next time after I upload them back home alright! Currently at bukit batok, at my kong kong popo house (: Look, yekai is already here to kaypo. Update next time! Anw i read twilight, it's so touching and sweet and BAGUS! Unlike the movie, so short and not detailed at all. I really prefer the book much more. The characters look so dumb and lifeless. Lol. Well, i'm not done with the movie, i'm gonna go watch it again before i read new moon. Yes! Heather dear is lending me the book, after she finishes it. Yay! So hyped so hyped!!!!

Okay i'm gonna go do my own stuff, update again soon!
I LOVE THE WORLD! :D

2009-01-17T17:45:00.004+08:00

2009-01-17T15:06:00.011+08:00

2009-01-17T13:29:00.005+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Losing Someone You love affection and the people in your life more than anything. Your greatest fear is that one day someone you care about won't be there anymore. You are a very friendly and inviting person, who draws in a lot of friendships with your kind, considerate, and loyal nature. However, deep down you are slightly insecure and unsure of yourself. You couldn't deal with it if you didn't have one of your loved ones in your life anymore. You don't have too much to worry about though, because with a friend like you, no one will want to lose you either!
Being Alone
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Disappointment
Death
Commitment
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Well, i did this quiz i saw in xiaoting's blog! Hahaha.

Anw, please go to www.freerice.com/index.php to answer simple math questions or english question and for every correct question we can help donate ten grains of rice through the UN World Food Program to help end hunger! Please, hao xin you hao bao! Help the less fortunate! (;

AND CAMP WAS MAORI-TASTIC! :D
Alot alot alot happened during the camp, will talk about it when I'm free. Just feel like posting about random things now. Haha. Well, will upload the pictures and a video from camp, and also the pics from sakae! :D Later. haaha.

I just realised that it's been a long long time since i've done a quiz. Well, i'll just keep doing and post it all in here! :D
And SO COOL! Xiaoting is the first person to post in my blog!! :D Haha This blog is like three years old? Well, i have bout 370++ posts and she's the first one to post in my blog! Hahaha. Ok. I need to shut up and go do quizes. bye.

OK i have decided not to do quizzes cus i dont find any quiz that attracts me at all. Wtf.
Aiya i shall start talking about camp!
I was in Tribe 1 = MAORIS :D Some new zealand tribe which has black white and brown ppl, (like our group) :D
Camp day one was horribly boring. BORING. We pitched tents, played ice breakers. At first i was really irritated with the school for dumping this camp on us, because.. I'VE FINALLY GOTTEN THE STUDY MOOD AND SUDDENLY THERE'S CAMP!? HELLO!? So i got rather irritated and was afraid i'd come back with holiday mood. Then we pitched stupid tents for ourselves to sleep, sad, i wanted huts. Anw, my tent has me, alvina, weihong, zhenying, asm, desrene, sihui, and jean! Haha. First night was bloody hot can! Wore the collar CIP shirt and closed all the flaps cus asm was afraid the dogs would come in and eat us up or something, then i woke up at like three am or something pespiring and i got damn dulan and unbuttoned my shirt all the way and went back to sleep. Windbreaker bring for shit.
Day two! Started to get a lil more fun! We built a catapult, MAORI 6000, which we launched and won first! :D Hohoho, Then we played the Milo pool thing too, we had walk on ropes to cross the the slide, so horribly scary and i screamed like hell. Then reached the slide, and the instructor was damn cute, asking questions like: you have boyfriend? what's his name? All that. Haha then i said no, and he refused to push me down until i say the name LOL. Funnier part was zhenying! Haha she kept saying she dont have then i anyhow said benjamin so he would push her down quick and he shouted :" Benjamin save zhenying!" and he pushed her down! Hahaha.
The toilets was horrendous. Did i mention? Oh shit it was so smelly and sick and disgusting that the thought of it makes me sick to the pit of my stomache. And worst part of it some fucking faggotic bitch put disposable panties and bra and plastics into the sqaut toilet and many of us couldnt use it to bathe! TMD! it fucking stank like hell can! Oh shit i'm so glad i'm sec four i dont have to go dirty camps like this anymore.
Actually i dont remember the order of the games we played. Lol. Doesnt matter i guess. we also had candle war! Fucked up game man! Hate it. It's supposed to be a bloody fun game but everyone didnt know the exact rules and had to cheat or something. The rule was to protect all five balloons tied to your flag at your base, and only the person protecting the flag can blow, and the would be defenders to protect the flag defender, and attackers(i'm an attacker) would use candles and blow up other tribes balloons. The funny part was i took ten plus steps out of base (first round) and some moron blew my candle. So grumpily i turned to return to base for mummy candle to light mine up again. GUESS WHAT I SAW!? No balloons left. everyone got it into their head to kill the MAORIS first and everyoned spammed attackers at our base and jonathan couldnt blow everyone out so all our balloons died. So this is where we earned our intergity and we sat down and gathered together and watched everyone had fun, because, no one was sticking to the rules! Then shaik got really mad and went to tell the chief, who rewarded us bonus points because we didnt cheat and continue to play. Lol. Second round i did defending. Got damn rackety and i went about screaming at everyone who wanted to blow up our balloon. SORRY TO ALL I SCREAMED AT! Since i couldnt touch you i guessed screaming would be better. hahaha.
And on Day 3, we got our 22nd member, the watermelon, MAORI 7000! (: We didnt know what to name him so we named him after our catapult. we made him unisex so we didnt have to havce a war on it's gender. so it'll be she + him = shim. I draw the girl face, which was damn anime like and pikachu(rafiq) did the guys face. Damn tribal and mask like. haha I'll upload it up soon! (:
Before campfire was really shocking! Mr Anbu suddenly announced that groups that lost their flags and watermelons would not attend the campfire and have an early night. Omg so many cried can! And of course everyone got damn hero, like lester ivan and shiyi and all of us cheered and all.
Campfire was rather boring and not as fun as i anticipated. Our performance screwed up, and moods went down all the way.
Lol. Dayfour was sweeping of the white tentage. haha it was so damn dirty after the stomping of feets and all the cheering! all the dust came out lor. So tiring to sweep half of the hall. Lol. Farez called me joansie the sweeper lol! Hahaha ok imma upload the pictures now, and go stalk farez, look for him in friendster! Cheerios! bye my loves! (;

2009-01-12T22:57:00.000+08:00

HELLO! :D
i'm XIAOTING! :D
Joan went home already. ):
sorry Joan. i didn't ask for your permission to blog ): cos i thought you log out already.
but i know you wont mind! :p
7 years of friendship lehh :p

okok :D
Joan will be going for camp tomorrow ):
i'll super duper miss her like mad.
LOVE YOU MY DARLING! :D

byebye :D

2009-01-10T15:42:00.014+08:00

Hello world!
I'm so happy now because I'm really cutting down alot on vulgarities. I guess it's okay if i use it when i'm mad but i think weihong and heather dont think so cus they hit me anw. Lol. Anw ytd was CCA carnival, school was extremely boring. And PE was rather fun, and fresh cus we learnt much more from donald, not like neo, dont even exercise with us. Lol. Anw my body is aching real bad now so i guess we really did alot ytd. Cca carnival was not bad, got a huge response! 49 ppl signed up for band! *claps for one hour* Anw I went back to play CLARINET :D And it was really tiring to keep play songs. Swept the floor area. went back to band after that. Had full band for awhile. Omg so tiring.

Then the happiest part of the day! WE ALL WENT TO HAVE DINNER! :D:D
It was super fun can we ate at KFC and we chatted a great deal. Aline came over to meet us also. Jumped from topic to topic and then we were talking about the supernatural. Wtf. And also some teletubbies black magic thing. And i got really affected by it lol. Ah reached home at bout 10 i think.

Ate Swensens ice cream on thursday! Went to TP for open house with class. Met up with dalston and we watched the band. I got some weird looking goodie bag! But i didnt get the ben and jerry's voucher ): Anw, we left really early and went to have lunch at compass, we ate this beef thing which i love very much! Then i got very full and i couldn't finish it cus i ate very slow and it got alittle disgusting cus the portion was huge. Lol. Went to the library and waited for mengliang, who showed us this swensen's voucher he got from Ngee An Poly. Dals got so hyped and we rushed down to Swensen's to eat ice cream! After ice cream we went to cold storage to walk walk. Oh ya! We took our middle fingers and tried to send it to this blue tooth printing machine outside macdonald's, it was so lame but fun! Hahaha!
Then I was playing with this bathing brush thing, i swung it to pass to dalston and i hit my own dumb mouth. IT WAS SO PAINFUL CAN! Meng and dals burst out laughing for damn long la! I laughed too but it got too painful and i cried while laughing. Luckily its not badly swollen or bleeding otherwise i'll look like i kena punch.

Pictures up! (: Oh ya and i forgot to update on new year's photo. Hang on, while i upload the pictures.

Oh fuck what's with life nowadays so many wierd things happening and all. I'm so stressed, Mummy please stay strong and dont scare us again like that. ):

TO SOMEONE OUT THERE! I WILL NOT DELETE THAT POST. I POST WHAT I WANT AND I DELETE WHAT I WANT. DONT ASK ME TO DELETE IT JUST BECAUSE YOU DELETED YOURS. JUST KEEP IN MIND THAT THIS IS MY BLOG, JOAN CHUA WEI YING, NOT YOURS SO YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO ASK ME DELETE IT JUST BECAUSE YOU DID SO. SO SHUT UP AND STOP ASKING THE TEACHERS TO PASS MESSAGES TO US.

Sometimes, you dont have to be everything to everyone. You just have to be something to someone.

2009-01-06T19:10:00.004+08:00

LOHA WORLD!
Colourful week indeeeeeeeeeddddd.
Had a bonding and goodbye BBQ for Mr Tang's Departure ytd.
I think I'll kinda miss him. Although he's eccentric and all. But... He's still our teacher.
Didn't really get to bond with him, and now he's gone. Wow.
Oh and he's not dead just gone to another school!
Hahaha. Anw school on monday and today was horribly boring.
I couldn't stand the :" Hi class! My name is MR/Miss/MRS *TOOT* and here's a short briefing on this years schedule...."
Omg I fricking slept for god knows how long on this two days lor!
BUT, Miss Rina is DAMN ZAI. The minute she came in she started nagging and scolding and pin pointing, hmm! Something fresh, and i decided not to sleep anymore afterthat!
Haha, after kp-ing for sometime she started on lesson. Or should i say RESTARTED, because we were re-taught acid and bases because some faggots didnt turn up for ssp last year. Oh my god. But hey! This is something new compared to lousy boring schedules we had to face. I paid 100% attention to her short one period lesson! Then we had to go for F&N ): Happiness is short lived ):
Anw, went to F&N room and Mdm Dewi told us our O lvls coursework A Starts next week 12th january 2009. OHMYTIAN. SO FAST! Time flies. I'm now fricking gonna turn sixteen in june. wont have to grumble anymore when i see shows that i wanna watch rated NC16! Hoho.
Lessons end really early tmr! At 12.30 pm! Hahaha this is just plain happiness and joy man. Chemistry again! Yay! And bio! I hope mrs quek is still here. I've not seen her since school reopened. I dont want that short miss goh to teach me. Eew.
School ended early today too! At 1.10 like that cus i dropped A math! *whoots and whistles*
Went to do homework with hairdur dear, ok la we copied-.-
Then had lunch, and went up to band room and i read my BURNED ALIVE story book. It's not BURN IN HELL OKAY MENGLIANG!

Okay I'm tired need to go look after my chicken steaming! Hahaha okay goodnight! (:

2009-01-04T12:16:00.005+08:00

HEY YOU FUGLY FAGGOT!
Who the fuck do you think you are just because you have a position in the **??
What makes you are that holy or that of a saint that people have to respect you?
And what?? Not all of us, not * , NONE OF US, uses teachers as backups ok. We are respectable, we're no fucking shrimp no fucking crap! Saying one of us is ALL OF US. He's in the same level as ME. And the rest of the committee (cept for BM AND DM) So wtf?? We're all shrimps and craps? MEANS THAT SHRIMPS AND CRAPS ARE SERVING THE BAND, SHRIMPS AND CRAPS ARE SERVING THE TEACHERS! SHRIMPS AND CRAPS ARE YOUR LEADERS IN BAND! Means you're lousier that a fricking shrimp AND crap. Oh god you've never used your brain right? Indirectly insulting YOURSELF. Why dont you sell your brain for a song(99 cents! in case you're that bloody stupid) OH! I forgot! YOU DONT HAVE ONE! sorraye, i just remembered that your head is filled with DUST AND FLEAS. Oh, and what're SLs? BAND MEMBERS? You're indirectly degrading yourself because YOU are also A BAND MEMBER. So I'm sure that by referring one of our committee member as a "SHRIMP AND CRAP" position you are insulting our band members indirectly, because they are UNDER US! And did i even mention how horrendous your english is? I'm not gonna quote it, BUT PLEASE. I will not respect someone who has the english that of a three year old kid who just registered into pre-school. And there's nothing wrong with his brain ok. He's not the one who started the rumours. BUT. THERE IS NEVER SMOKE WITHOUT FIRE. I guess you're the fire? YOU BROUGHT ABOUT THE SMOKE. NOW YOU DEAL WIT THE FIRE. And how the hell is * supposed to ask when you're not present in *? How's he gonna ask when HIS MOUTH IS SO FULL OF RUBBISH LIKE YOU SAID? Well, he has the ability to act cute, which he does succesfully! What about you? Hmm, i guess you have the great talent of flirting? And no one is born a leader. YOU'RE NOT ONE. We LEARN how to be a leader and HOW TO BEHAVE LIKE ONE. We fucking earn our RESPECT from the BAND MEMBERS. YOU? You dont have my respect. NOT AT ALL. You want it? You EARN IT. Well, kneel down and offer a cup of tea to me, then i'll consider respecting you. Prick. And there you go again! talking about NINE YEAR OLD KIDS. WOW. You were one before man! What's with you and comparing and insulting? Nine year old kids are fucking innocent ok. and if you were to broadcast this, hundreds and thousands of 9 year old kids will bloody TREAT YOU COFFEE MAN. If * didn't have self control, i dare say he'd make sure you have a swollen eye before you went home ok. He manages his impulsitivity. And you? All gutless and boji hiding behind a computer and virtual world, posting in your blog. Why dont you try out some golf? Go look for balls you'll never find! I guess you wont understand this anw. You have no idea how minute your knowledge of english is, to put it short. I NEED A MICROSCOPE. If there were so many flaws to be mentioned i'm sure you would've SAID IT OUT. But no! You dont have any in mind so you just bluntly describe it as "TOO MANY * * TOLD". And wtf do you mean by YOUR THAT GROUP!? Then where is YOUR OWN "THAT GROUP"?! Fuxxor. Everyone has guts okay, dont push your limits, you have guts too! I bet yours are stinking intestines while * are all fresh and pink and clean. KNN. Oh shit i hate you, you F**KING FAGGOT. Well, I dare say you dont show a good example. You're no great leader. I'VE SAID IT. Wanan print this out too? or TELL THE TEACHER? Oh my tian you suck. You can go about saying that i dont have the right to do so. Well, i'm no great leader either, BUT I EARN MY RIGHTS. AND WOW WOW WOW! SAY SOLO! WHO WAS THE ONE, THE GUTLESS, NO BALLS, SOLO KID? SAY SO MUCH COCK TALK, AND YOU FRICKING COMPLAINED! So dont have BIG TALK about going SOLO. AIR TALK! You use teachers to clean up your shit. So maybe YOU should be the one to BURY YOUR HEAD IN A SHIT PIT. NO! That's far too easy. WHY DONT YOU RUN ALL THE WAY HOME TO YOU MAMA. You're just trying to SHOW OFF your POSITION in the sc right? WOW You're so proud! You're such an important figure in the school, so saint and holy! How sad that us SKYBAND COMMITTEE MEMBERS ARE "SHRIMP AND CRAP" ! Knn, you have no idea what shit you just said, flea brain. And Coffee is something nice, you dont fricking describe "diao zui" or "trouble" as TREATING COFFEE! You think you're some chinese Ah Beng? PUI TO THE POWER OF MILLIONS. REPUTABLE AH BENGS DONT BLOODY GO RUNNING FOR THEY'RE TEACHERS PROTECTION. Bear that in MIND. YOU CANT KEEP YOUR ASS UP LIKE US! I dont care if i fricking tainted my blog with vulgarities. You better be honoured. I'm posting about some insignificant manure! Wtf!? Anw, I do justice. Not like some no balls going "Come SOLO la!" Wow, who the fuck brought teachers in. ROUND OF APPLAUSE PEOPLE! He deserves it. Useless WIMP.

2008-12-31T02:10:00.004+08:00

Fun day today, went to study.
Lol tho' studying doesn't sound fun but hey! We didnt study all the way k.

Ate at CP Kopitiam, i ate fried dumpling noodles and mengaboon kept saying it's not fried dumplings cus is not far east one. -.-

Anw, went to value shop bought snacks( omg i just rmb my seaweed is in my bag!:D) then went to study at Aaron's house downstairs the library.

okay not study, is play slack and do homework.

Wtf and i just do one mindmap throughout the whole "hmwk session"

Need to finish it on Saturday man.
omg i'm tired and i'ts just 2 am.

hoho, one picture says it all.
Oh yeah then dalston came and we all had dinner at Kovan Hawker Centre,

oh shit lor the food there sucks dont ever eat there anymore. Ok maybe cus the food we bought were from places with short Qs but hey we were starving cant afford to Q ten hours for great food k. Then everyone went home, acc Mengaboon to his grandma's house to take A WATCH and met Aaron at CP, then we went Xiaoting's house to get the skirt dress thing and bought Aaron's lousy salted fried chicken which that selfish boy gave mengliang more. I rmb and bear grudges hor Aaron watch out! Then they walked me home and they rotted home. YAY! End of one post i'm tired i'm gonna go sleep goodnight world miss me i know you wont. GOODNIGHT! :D

2008-12-29T05:02:00.003+08:00

it's 5.03AM now.
Oh my god i'm not tired at all.
I hear buses downstairs.
SBS kai gong le.
I feel weird. I need xiaoting. I have alot of things to confide in her):
Xiaoting ): Oh my tian I'm just gonna go to sleep and meet clique later.
Goodnight world. I'm feeling sad ):
And it's not because of the bangle. Feeling sad cus of a dead thing is so lame.
Okay whatever goodnight. Go to hell!
Oh fuck i miss shit. shit. shit. Ah shit GOODNIGHT!

2008-12-29T01:52:00.005+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! :D

I swear to the Neutral One that this is damn yummy!

Signature salad from Cowmo!

So cute right! :D I swear I'll kill kids who bully her in preschool.

The naggy one! Drumrollss........ ANDRA! :D

Santa Claus gave way to the new generation, Pixie Clauses! (:

IDK what happened to their santa's hat and beard. Lol.

Presents! So little right! But mum and popo gave me ang pao.

Deng Deng Deng Dengggggg! :D

SUNDAY AT BRAN'S HOUSE!

Bran is selling Cola ):

Anyone who wish to buy Cola please contact bran thanks.

When you buy Cola you get this too!

We bring him to regular walks...

Look! He's healthy and happy! No illnesses! :D

So cute! You'll love him so dearly!

* ok bran's not selling Cola I'm just being boliao.*

ME AFTER MY NEW SPECS! ):
I know i look dumb ok. Don't laugh hor. You're lucky i'm not Liu Yi Dao.

2008-12-23T23:31:00.007+08:00

XIAOTING'S CONCERTO DAY!

Okay that's lihua she didn't eat her whitening medicine so she was black for the day haha! (:

christams feeling~ :D

My cute nails! I did it on my own! But it dissapeared after one day in band. No. After i made the curry lunch with aaron bran and ernest. O my neutral one, i wonder if they ate any of my stars and ribbons! :X

So sweet right! If my husband proposed me with this i dont mind! Haha, but i want a ring also! At least some stainless steel or silver. Diamante can come later hurhur :D

COOKING SESSION!

omg girls you see Aariano? So hardworking! Good husband good n00b material, queue up! Or anyone wanna buy this photo selling at 10 cents! Hahaha ok very guailan right! Who call Aaron spam me with numbered tags! Hoho.

COLA'S EMO SESSION.

Credits to Ernest for the cola pics!

this is my bowl or yumsies!

I know you're salivating. I am too. T.T

So cute this bear bear! Kawaiinessssssss. Anw check out my nail! missing ribbon and star :X

Aariano Act Zai. OMG! New motto AAZ!

Being mean to Cola.

omg let the pictures do the talking!
Anw i cut my nails just now! feel so shiok and clean now :D

Know what? i was talking to my sister:

Me : Jie! i just cut my nails! My fingers are so clean and cute!
Andra : You know why? Cus they're fat and stubby.
Me : O.O ....

O my tian why is my sister so guailan.
Anw hope dals is back in singapore! Goodnight world!

Ok I'm gonna go play with my soyabean, she's been neglected for too long haha!
Escape with clique tmr! Goodnight world! (;

2008-12-23T22:59:00.007+08:00

I'm so bored I'm gonna do the Alphabet name thing!
ok lame but i'm really bored!
Later I'll post pics k!

A - Aariano Wong AH Long!
B - Brandon
C - Cheryl from 3E3. Lol. Randomness,
D - Dalston!
E - Ernest/ Eugene
F - Fredrick some ulu guy suggested by Aariano.
G - Georgina
H - Hairdur!
I - Ivan
J - Jingyi/ Jolyn/ JAMESESESESESES!
K - Kailing
L - Lucinda :D
M - Myshell
N - Nathaneal
O - Oliverrrrrrr.
P - Priscilla
Q - Qiao Qiao ( Suggested Aariano WONG.)
R - RACHEL DARLING!
S - SAW ! No la SIHUI!
T - TANMENGLIANG
U - U
V - Vincent! No he's under N, for nutcent
W - Winston!
X - Xiaoting! :D
Y - Yoongluck!
Z - Zuohui.

Much Credits to Aariano Wong AH Long!

2008-12-23T02:00:00.004+08:00

It's now 2am.
I'm bored hungry and sad.
I'm so bored that i feel like eating but the sadness just kills my appetite ):
Omg. I'm gonna be really busy the next few days, so i guess i wont really be blogging.
I'll update later tonight when i'm come home, i'm out with mum to make my bank account.
I've got horrible sore throat): Described it to lihua and she says it's an infection.
O my tian. Why does this happen to me. Can't swallow without pain.

Still need to remove my nail polish.
Out on wednesday to Escape with clique?
Went to escape for my than five times in this short life time, omg.
And staying over at po po house, then celebrating christmas.
What's to celebrate when i've not bought presents!
I want so many things right now. I guess it's rather hard to achieve, only time to shop is tmr.

But mum might not even want.
Okay i'm tired, i wanna sleep i could eat a COW! nono cow is common, i could eat a... kingkong? :/
No i don't think I'm THAT hungry. I guess i could settle for Mengaboon. hmm.

Anw Aaron thought me 1337/lEEt language I'm gonna try using it right now!

omg the chim version cannot post in blog!
Got error! Knn.
Nvm i use the number thing. ok this is so lame i like the chim one more ):

H3y D4570n! H4v3 4 54f3 7r1p b4ck, 74k3c4r3 4nd 533 y0u 500n! (:

omg i'm feeling sad and lame now goodnight. Dont laugh at me.

AARON WONG AN LONG IT'S BLOGGER NOT ME! I'LL BOX YOU IF YOU CALL ME NOOB K.

You're not helping you know!?
Fuckyou!
Shut up!

O my neutral one, this is so fun.

2008-12-20T23:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY DALSTON ! :D
All the best in your future! Stop being mean an start being nice!
Hahaha, omfg i need to post this before 12 am. Hope you liked the crumpler and my cake! :D